Hey, guys. I’ve been researching and reading, both books and the tarot, for months on this topic, and I’m honestly stumped and need a little guidance on how to clear this up.
Around last September or so, I began having a recurring dream where I enter this tunnel and there’s what I can only describe as a spider standing on two legs wearing a little girl suit. She greets me by my real last name, and welcomes me back. She then guides me down this tunnel, where I never clearly remember what I see, it’s all just a flash of colors and images that don’t make sense.
I’ve been trying to identify the entity behind these dreams, and I’ve narrowed my list down to three, Sepheranz/The Spider Goddess/Arachne, Lilith’s Spider Aspect, and Naamah, who according to my research, will occasionally manifest as a spider.
A few weeks ago while I was doing research I felt a STRONG presence around me, I haven’t felt anything like that before EVER. I could see a shape, vaguely resembling the entity from my dream in the hallway. I went with my gut and mentally asked if it was Sepheranz known as the Spider Goddess, and I heard what could only sound like a giant spider stampeding through my bedroom, which was above me at the time, and crash into my window before everything went silent.
At first I took this as confirmation, but now I’m not so sure. I’ve since called out to Sepheranz again, by name in meditation and ritual, and have had no response at all. I’m honestly wondering if I just guessed wrong and offended someone, or I guessed right and she’s waiting for me to make the next move. I also haven’t had the dream since.
My other problem is that while my clairsentience is on point, the rest of my astral senses are still rather weak despite my best efforts, and no other method, such as pendulums, the cards, etc., are giving me anything clear. It’s like I’m being toyed with.
Has anyone had an experience with either of these goddesses along these lines and can shed any light on how to handle the situation? Is there a simplistic technique for communication I can try that I haven’t come across yet? Or am I just in this for the long game and have to wait it out while my senses develop?
Also, if anyone cares to see or thinks it might help, I drew a very basic picture of the entity I would see in my dreams. If it helps I’ll put it up.