My experience suggests that a prominent Goetic spirit is actually attached to Christianity and wants to push that to the point of becoming a pest. My studies indicate there is some truth to this. What has tripped me up is how we’ve had many positive adventures in the past. Things became troubled and when I found myself fighting with him rather than having positive encounters I trashed his altar because it seemed he wasn’t listening. I don’t do that lightly but I see it as a way of wanting to be taken seriously and that I won’t stand for bullying. I won’t go into every little detail, but we became close and this is a let-down.
I realize that Baal is a title and that there are many Baals–in the ancient world, lords of place, and sometimes designating a human. One of them appeared to me visibly some years ago and I’ve had an at times difficult relationship with him. I chose to struggle through rather than succumb to ordeals and to see it as a way of building my strength. I have always treated him with the utmost respect and courtesy until he began to ride me, seemingly about becoming Christian. It seems he may be one of the forces behind Christianity for his own reasons. And I’m aware that there could be something like a LHP Christianity.
My question to the forum is, has anyone experienced Baal or any of the Baals to be a Christian pest? Or is he trying to use some harsh experiences of my childhood to get under my skin in order for me to ‘alchemize the dross’, so to speak. These things may not be mutually exclusive. I suffered humiliation and abuse at the hands of Christian day care workers and I have wondered if I’ve more work to do to clear that out of my psyche.
My interest in the LHP was never about a simple rejection of Christianity but there is a certain irony in having Christian forces (or those appearing as such) come through the Goetia, as if to show how deep certain roots go. I understand Christianity to be derivative of Roman Paganism with plagiarism from Mystery Religions, Egyptian & Sumerian mythos, among other things. If those threads exist, so be it but it doesn’t mean i want to be run ragged by a proselytizing Christian, or those appearing as such.
Another spirit with me said I’d been tricked, and that this particular Baal was ‘a loser.’
Another angle that I’ve seen LHP folks explore is how Christian ancestors may wind up exerting pressure on a person trying to break away from the weight of tradition. When I went through a profound awakening some years ago there seemed to be memories of playing a role in ceremonial events in ancient times as well as having Christians invade my home and start burning things. It seems there is a troubled past there, or at least it’s suggestive of such an interpretation.
I welcome any comments and thoughts on the subject. The forum is too big to do an exhaustive search to see if this has been covered before.