Neither can anybody else, so you might as well learn to trust yourself than someone who could also be bullshitting you and themselves. It’s called UPG - unverified personal gnosis.
And like I said, everyone here is a student nobody has the Truth™ - there’s no way to get that as a human. All we have is various models that all speak to an underlying reality we can’t perceive directly. Whoever claims to know the Truth with a capital T, start running, they are at best nuts and at worst trying to scam you.
I think these could be useful for you:
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There are millions more planets than Earth, if you still want to be incarnate you don’t have to choose this planet even. If you want to be human than that’s your prerogative, but there are other options - in my opinion and worldview.