I had a vision of a candle burning on a cake and I heard „16“.
I am getting that it’s time for you to move on about something. It seems like you keep seeing something or having it clearly on your mind. Magick could help maybe. You need to get your vitality back in order to heal. Rebuild something. You need love and caring people around you to regain strength. Light and love to banish the dark thoughts.
I am getting Someone walked away in the past.
Seems like what happened to you on a birthday was something you couldn’t or didn’t want to realize/believe at first. It caused lots of grief. I am not sure if you took the time you needed to grief about it.
Seems like you had to face up with something you didn’t want to or weren’t ready for. It’s possible that you isolated yourself afterwards, maybe even started to get interested in magick by that time.
In order to free yourself you probably have to face the truth about what has happened and caused this trauma. You haven’t been ready for it in the past but you could be ready now. You should try new ways to express your emotions and what’s going on inside of you - to let it out. You might find solace in religion, tradition, spiritual - or in good relationships. But you need a safe place. Find peace for yourself, try to see the good things in love even if the times are hard - try to see the good things on this specific days even though it seems like nothing works out. When you feel weak, try to be strong. Try to have an influence and manifest what you want to happen. If you fear that something bad will happen it’s more likely it happens probably in your situation. Don’t expect anything but tell yourself it will be a great day, no matter what!
I hope this resonates and helps you somehow.
I wish you all the best