I don’t know how experienced with magick you are, but there are two things I would say to you:
- your life isn’t over, in fact this forum is teeming with people who experienced extremely adverse winds and I am one of them, as long as you believe you can make it, you will be fine, just don’t give in to despair no matter how bad things may look at the moment, important sidenote, be willing to work on yourself and reexamine some of your beliefes and attitudes, so you can start rebuilding your life and changing it for the better
- if you need some relatively easy magick to help you with any needs you may have, you can always try a petition spell, I keep recommending it to literally everyone coming to this forum as it was recommended to me some time ago and has since helped me so many times