Hi! I came here hoping someone could explain what’s going on with me. I could write a book but I’ll try to explain only main events Weird stuff has happened to me all my life and things are getting more intense.
I haven’t been very religious or anything, but I’ve always been curious and somehow realized how complex the universum with different entities and laws is. Sure I believe in god, but I don’t believe things are the way they are presented in e.g. bible. Anyway to the point:
When I was a little child, I saw this dream where some scary entity was behind me and kind of telepathically asked me to bring them something. I couldn’t turn and see the thing, and the dream ended. Some years later I saw the same dream where the entity asked if I brought it already. I asked what, but the dream ended. After this, I always heard weird things like breathibg and foot steps in the house, even my parents were elsewhere. I also had ability for lucid dreaming.
Later as a teen something I was (I know I know, I was stupid teen ok) cheating my not so serious ”boyfriend” and I started heavily bleeding during sex. It stopped immediately after stopping the act. The same happens several months later with the same guy when we tried again, but no medical explanation was ever found by the healthcare and everything was fine in the health side.
In my twenties I started seeing premonitions, typically horrible ones. Like one famous european plane crash, people dying who I barely knew etc. I swore I dont want to know this stuff beforehand anymore and the dreams stopped. However, my dreams have been very weird also afterwards. Often supernatural but less scary lately.
I’ve also had a very good intuition always, and I’m very good at manifesting. I just didn’t know it was called manifesting before I looked into it. To me I know that everything is always going to work out. I have a PhD, I’m succesful and gained publicity in my country and I can’t complain how I look. I feel however, that I have my dark side as well as good loving one. I’d do anything for my pets, friends and family but at the same time I kind of like it too much when men fall in love with me and do things for me. I know I shoudn’t let them, but I like receiving attention from so many people. I also love sex and I’ve had many partners and always enjoyed experiencing new things.
I rarely fall in love my self. I had a long-term relationship and that time, very weird things happened in our house and I felt kind of bad energy. The energy changed to positive after we broke up, alltough furnitures are still moving and my cats are sensing things here. Lately I’ve felt I have multiple spirit guides helping me, but I can’t stop thinking there is some older one who has been attached me since I was a child. I feel this one has also saved me many times. Literally saved my life in dangerous ”that was so close this is a miracle” situations.
My question is, what that can be? Should I be scared or thankful? What is expected from me?
I tried to ask while meditation who is guiding me, and in the dream-awake borderline I heard a voice speaking language I did not understand and can’t recall anymore. There was at least s-sound, and the voice was snake/little kid kind of weird mixture. I don’t know if feminine or masculine. Has anyone experienced something similar?