Not really sure how successful I was.
I took the respectful invitation approach. I have a backbone and wasn’t too concerned about appearing weak. And so I bought wine and roses for a general meet and greet evocation.
My intent was, guidance with Ascension and growth. Strengthening of myself… I’ve gotten so weak this last year physically and in some mental health aspects such as existential depression. That profound sense of pointlessless really kicks my ass. Also, help with blockages at work. There are some serious secret little fuck fuck games going on there.
I made my space, got my sigil and roses and wine, and meditated on the sigil.
Prior to this I listened to a chant of his enn on the way home. It had a strange effect on me… kept making me yawn even though I wasn’t tired. It was very soothing and calming . Very very. But still not in a sleep time way.
While gazing at the sigil nothing was really happening. So I closed my eyes and meditated to get in the proper trance, then gazed again. I noticed a little movement, not flashing and not 3D but something a little wiggly.
I started chanting the enn and closed my eyes again. I got a pulsating feeling in my vajay… almost like a heartbeat but a little faster and stronger. Totally wasn’t expecting that and I think it threw my concentration off a bit.
I felt prompted to lie back, and after a while I turned on the chant of the enn, and I was out like a light.
What the freaking hell. I totally botched the whole flow of everything I wanted to do.
I put blood around the sigil as well. I’m going to plan better and try again tonight.