Ravens, I’m sorry if I came off sarcastically or facetiously. It was perhaps a result of a long exhausting week, and for that, I am sorry. I’ve been defending my unorthodoxy as long as I can remember and while, its good practice to keep the mind sharp and make sure that my beliefs stand up to scrutiny in my own head, sometimes, it can be tiring/frustrating/baffling trying to explain. So, yes, my tone/writing style (probably speech, too) is fairly preachy as I try to organize the thoughts that bounce about all day as events like preparing food, chores, work, etc. occur, as well.
A cliche I hear a lot and without even a modicum of understanding from most Christians is that Christianity is a relationship, rather than a religion. Truth. Though, most bury the relationship in …religion and religious bullshit. Recall that according to contract law, the definition of relationship is contract/law/pact/relationship/testament.
Yes, Christianity is full of magic, and is extremely initiatory; from admitting that the human vessel is finite, therefore ‘flawed’ and in need of divine Grace, therefore learning to forgive one’s self and others, by aligning with the Source as ultimate promulgator of every aspect of what we call ‘love’ (a ridiculous catch-all really), to Baptism by Water, that is publically repenting after the private acceptance of Grace.
Once a Christian has been initiated privately - a soul commitment/contract to strive for the Heavenly Father (Law/Order) through the Son (Grace) by accepting that the vessel must actually undergo death to attain that kind of power, and accepting that only an ascended human can emulate it; a Son of God, then the Christian has access to the divine Grace (fruits of the spirit made holy: think Galatians; love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness, self-control, perseverence) in a totally different sense than using the corporeal body.
That is: This is a system entirely and utterly apart from the corporeal, no relation whatsoever to chakras, or the energetic body. Hence the verses regarding: By Grace are we saved through faith. And this is a gift of God, not of works lest any man should boast.
Now, working on the energetic body is of course a wonderful practice, yoga, meditation, and I partake liberally of those, but they are focused on only becoming a human living god and so are totally finite. The body is viewed as the vessel; the temple that houses the bound spirit (soul), and its a duty to care for it, but the vessel is NOT me. As in: When I go to court, and the judge asks if I am Gwendolyn, I can honestly say that I am not. I call myself Gwendolyn, but in reality I am a bound spirit (soul) inhabiting a body called Gwendolyn. I think of Gwendolyn as my property. Christianity focuses on alignment with Source - as Heavenly Father - freely and willingly. Not merging, not separating as own god, but alignment through my will as spirit, rather than Gwendolyn’s solar plexus chakra, seat of corporeal will.
This is a prime reason why Christians are so against strengthening the energetic body, the finite flawed vessel. They irrationally believe that a strong chakral system will allow the vessel to move away from Christ, that I would permit my vessel, Gwendolyn to begin feeling pride of her vessel self and breach the contract/relationship/pact with Heavenly Father.
Once that contract/relationship/pact is made privately, then all other relationships are downstream in the hierarchy, however. So, the sinners prayer: “I am flawed, I cannot do this on my own; I am in need of divine Grace; I fully and freely accept Christ’s sacrificial death as atonement for this finite vessel’s state of being finite. I choose fully and freely to accept Christ as Savior/Healer/Infinite Love.” The purpose being that accepting Grace allows for this gift to flow through the Christian upon request. Naturally, this is only upon request as we have free will. It is completely possible to fail to request this gift when necessary, moving out of alignment with Source - this will, of course, result in motion away from Heavenly Father’s Law/Order - motion back toward animal chaos. Direction of an adversarial lifestyle; fighting for position among animal/humans; satanism. Another paradox here; I also allow Gwendolyn to evoke Satan as an entity and converse without fear or issue. To me, this is logical. She wants to consciously know what obstacles lay before her so she can consciously make decisions to increase her knowledge. She venerates Lucifer as well; bringer of knowledge. But, they are not where she obtains Gnosis, that is from Source. They are assistants/tools/helpers, treated with the utmost respect. And in the ways that those entities prefer and are capable of receiving it, the aspects of divine love that she can gift them and receive from them. (However, according to Divine Law, things in part are dead; they are lies; so aspects of love are impure/false/illusory)
So, menstrual blood; a gift of my property’s corporeal vessel/temple because Grace is not something the demonic entities with whom I permit my property, Gwendolyn, to work desire or require; they are beings of energy of a different sort. Menstrual blood is the ultimate in my experience because it is the agent that nourishes chaos (impure/unholy Mother principle with which we are all born); until it is expelled from the vessel, its purpose is to create with its nutrient/hormone compliment. Blood excised from the body has different purposes depending upon location, time, stress (hormones), etc.
Angels, I rarely work with and not closely, so I cannot speak to a contract/relationship them.
The second initiation is necessary to undergo Water Baptism - that is to publicly confess the same things stated in the sinner’s prayer to the community of Christians (and world at large) and through collective Grace to give and receive community blessings. Hence the “it is more blessed to give than to receive.” God’s Grace is viewed as able to pour out into the surrounding community healing self and others. Again, this is not a result in any way of the corporeal vessel; not related to chakras, or energetic healing, or bioelectricity, or aural. The body is viewed as finite which is flawed. Of course, the power of the Heavenly Father through the Son can heal the body and whatnot, but that’s never the main purpose. Its all about alignment with source as a Christian Collective at that point. As I see it, the water immersion is immersion in community; a drop in the ocean - pure symbolism as guide. (In energetic [pagan] practices, the actual life/energy of the water its self is used.) If it is God’s will for a vessel to operate a certain way, then aligning with Heavenly Father will bring about that operation be it through paralysis, blindness, or the body of an athlete. Damned thing’s only a vessel. Which is why I like to have a practice to keep my vessel in the best shape possible; paradox. I’m not going to invite my beloved God into a place where I also house fucking twinkies, cheap beer, and a lot of thoughts about the latest sitcom. Not going to clutter my temple with shit, let her get fat, and lay about bitching and moaning. I’m going to work on perfecting my property’s mind so that bringing Gwendolyn into alignment with Christ is easy, a pleasure, a joy. So, ironically, that means working her ass off in every healthy way possible.
After Baptism by Water, then next requirement is Baptism by Fire. Just because, every human vessel is viewed as ‘sinful’ and ‘flawed’ it doesn’t preclude unloved; . We are gifted divinely with free will. So, a Christian who is aligned/striving for alignment to the Father principle through the Son principle has the third principle: Holy Spirit. At birth, our spirit is joined with body and together they function as soul; chaos, animal nature is created for survival. And we survive quite horrifically and painfully and chaotically; painful, brutish, and short; animal existence - adversarial. Some embrace this, some fight it and try to create beauty and peace. A Christian, however, through the aligment with Father through Son, can reweave the relationship/contract/pact back on its self and request Heavenly Father’s power manifested through the spirit, which santifies (makes holy) the unity of the soul. Again, nothing to do with the energetic body, though it can heal the vessel and control it as an act of will. However, the only act of will possible is the request for the Holy Spirit to manifest, the rest of the process is done through blind faith.
Here’s what it looks like in my experience. I allow Gwendolyn, my property, to do divination to foresee whether she should pursue a relationship/contract with another human vessel to whom she is attracted; runes, or tarot, or whatnot. Answer is quite positive and helpful, but Gwendolyn still cannot see how to get from here to there. The path is unclear no matter the readings. She looks at the heavens, reads her transits, looks for the best timing, but again, the tools…are not quite there. So, I direct that she pray. Begin by thanking Heavenly Father for His blessings, for her life, for everything; worship, gratitude for loving my finite vessel, for Grace. And then I request the Holy Spirit (sanctified Mother principle; Chaos/Creativity pouring from Law/Order, through Grace/forgiveness/mercy). And the icy burn and glossolalia that emits through her connection with my spirit completely transcends the entire energetic body; doesn’t matter if her chakras are clear that day, doesn’t matter if she’s eaten a shit ton of ice cream and her vessel feels like poo; doesn’t matter if she has the flu. Unlike working with her chakras, this is a total gift nothing to do with my/her works. But, its a divinely ordered chaos gift. She has no fucking clue what will happen; utter blind faith; it comes from beyond the consciousness and is totally uncontrollable save for turning it off. It might tell her exactly how to go about meeting the person she prefers, it may throw her to the floor convulsing, she might start singing like a fucking loon, she might suddenly have a migraine, or conversely have a migraine dissipate. It is a massive power surge that results in the perfect and appropriate healing/counsel/realignment with Heavenly Father, and it alters histamine levels, the prime neurotransmitter; oh science, how I adore it. And no, I never cite anything, because I don’t care to do so; 20 years researching every topic under the sun would have me doing nothing but citing various studies, papers, articles, experiences, and I’d never have time to analyze.
So, most Christians seem to prefer to live lazily, commercially (materialistically), and simply. They don’t seek knowledge. They take shit care of their vessel; mind, emotions, passions, body. But, when the real shit comes into their lives, they make an about face toward Law/Order (Heavenly Father) and request their get-out-of-jail-card (Grace). And weirdly, it works because they are so damned aware of their flawed finite state at that point because they basically stopped steering their vessel period… and can see the disaster imminent or have already crashed it. hah. And the only way that they can love their vessel at that point is though divine Grace. facepalm
Seems a stupid, boring way to live for Gwendolyn. She’d much rather push all limits. Work in each department. Only bother the CEO when she’s exhausted her vessel’s resources by using them, so to speak.
I see nothing wrong with learning Heavenly Father’s tools as long as I keep in alignment; remember who I am; remember who I am not. Keep my awareness of the vessel at the forefront and don’t slip into thinking that she with her errors, bitchiness, and tendency to bite her fingernails when she’s nervous is me.
And of course, I got to that place of comprehending the separation through use of chemical substances, another thing I have no issue with as long as the use is for research and learning or refreshment/healing, never for escape/non-thinking/non-analysis.
First praying to Heavenly Father through Christ, I stated my intent to attain knowledge and wisdom so that my faith could grow. (Stating intent is NOT entering a contract/altering a relationship/renegotiating law) Any other pact/relationship/contract is lower in the hierarchy than that which I have with Heavenly Father. With the assistance of Lucifer (gatekeeper) and Belial, I timed a journey so that I had the correct amount of menstrual blood available. Entering trance, and placing the blood on my crown chakra, I used their enns and evoked them, asked them to guard my vessel, and guide me so that I could return. This most obvious experience of being a spiritual entity was leaving my vessel entirely, experiencing the whole of the universe and rejoicing.
Then, there was the return. It was the most excruciating agonizing process imaginable, took about 3 hours. Me, the infinite being, was slowly forced into this bizarre creature/container/vessel. I could move only stubby appendages, strange sounds emerged (cries of terror, utter sorrow/despair), odd cravings/compulsions (starving/needed immediate food), then when I allowed it to operate as its pre-programmed will pleaded, I discovered that most functions were automatic (breathing, eliminating, swallowing), even the creatures inhabiting it (cells, and smaller entities) were overseen/controlled by this weird being/container. And the container/vessel was full of thoughts/ideas/expectations already since it was an adult rather than a baby. This was the worst experience I have ever encountered in my awareness with the vessel Gwendolyn. Shattering. Agonizing. Illuminating. From singing with the stars to being essentially trapped in this human container. Gah. Even my thoughts are trapped and twisted by the container because it perceives. The genii wants nothing more than to be free of the lamp.
Then again…the lamp is a world of perception that fascinates, so fortunately, the genii is easily distracted within. And all those other lamps crashing into this lamp also fascinate.
Anyway, these reasons are why Christians aligned with Heavenly Father through Grace can do some crazy shit when they manifest the Holy Spirit, even breaking the hold of powerful Loa …be it God’s will. Often it is. Other times, not so much. Regardless, the glory is all to be given to God.
As in the Lord’s Prayer:
Our Father who art in Heaven (divine Law/Order)
Hallowed be thy name (God’s name is ineffable as we finite vessels cannot convey it to one another)
Thy kindom come (bring law/order to my vessel)
Thy will be done (I align my will with yours)
On earth as it is in heaven (as above, so below)
Give us this day our daily bread (provide divine nourishment)
And forgive us our debts (as ultimate creditor)
As we forgive our debtors (only through alignment/credit with Source)
And lead us not into temptation (spirit sanctified - Holy Spirit, rather than animal)
For thine is the kingdom (the vessel is yours by my will to align with you)
And the power (power apart from the vessel)
And the Glory for ever (glory manifested through the vessel, but not from the vessel)
And her sermon ends. Tired Gwendolyn vessel to ceases typing and is allowed delicious organic chocolate devoid of dairy.