Medical schools will accept anyone without a high school diploma but you must have a GED (general equivilancy diploma) and you must make over a certain score on your ACT or SAT test. I imagine the scores vary per state but here where I live an ACT score of 21 will get you into the undergraduate programs to become a nurse, tech or assistant that requires a 2-4 year degree but if you want to be a full on therapist, doctor or surgeon and go to school for 6-10 years I think the score has to be 23 or higher to get into the graduate programs. But it also depends on what college you attend, I imagine some ivy league schools are much stricter than that with their score requirements.
Iām not concerned with health affects of smoking, Iāve had ultrasounds and x-rays of my lungs and after being a smoker for like 14 years I was told my lungs look like Iāve never smoked a day in my life. I started smoking in 8th grade. I was more concerned that smokes cost a lot of money and here in the U.S. every few years they keep raising the price and taxes all at once. But I figured if he can help with a strong addiction like that he could help me with some things I need to improve on I just hope he doesnāt think it would be best to put me in a bad situation to get me to improve.
For the first time in several years Iām finally getting my life in order and things are looking up better than ever, everything is going just right. I went thru so much hell before turning to black magick that it made me have a negative attitude and hatred for everyone that seemed to have their affairs in order and seemed to be happy, and that negativity created a downward spiral that I refuse to go back to, so I hope his idea of ripping things apart to straighten you out doesnāt involve putting me thru that hell again after everything I worked so hard to accomplish recently because that would not only ruin everything Iāve worked for but put me back in that cycle of hating everyone around me that is happy when I can never get a break.
When I was an RHPer nothing ever went right. Life only seemed to tease me by giving me what I needed most for a very short time then stripping it away from me in a violent manner and trading what little happiness I had in exchange for 5 depressing and hard to overcome situations. It was like I could never get a break and just enjoy my life and the universe was having fun teasing me with my desires. It wasnāt just things I wanted, but things I needed to survive were continually taken away from me so I finally broke thru that cycle of endless problems and failures and used my previous disadvantages to my advantage to get ahead in life.
So I got no problem with being tested in some ways because I believe all those struggles I had were tests to get me to realize how the adult world really works but I refuse to do so if it means going back to those struggles again. Iāve already been there and proven myself worthy and pulled myself up out of that slump and my lifepath is currently being altered by another spirit thatās helping me to get ahead and reach my main goal in life. I am sacrificing many things that I enjoy in order to make his work possible and am willing to continue making these sacrifices since I know the end result is best for me, but this is all part of continually embettering myself so I wonder if Belial would end up stopping the progress Iāve made this far and take me right back to square one where I am stuck in an endless cycle of depression, hatred and suffering?
I am willing to make sacrifices, they are a necessary part of both mundane and magickal living but I am not willing to lose everything Iāve worked so hard for.