There always seems to be a time where I absolutely fall apart, fall into a pit of hopelessness and doubt.
It is like an old story that tries to regain power and crush everything, while there is another part that believes, and that KNOWS, tries to fight it, but the old story is too ingrained, too strong.
Now I’m questioning myself on how I can actually let that old story die.
Whether its the inner child that got hurt one too many times, or the shadow that keeps poking out.
Imo I’ve let the shadow part become one with my conscious part, integrating it
I do know what parts I keep hidden or used to keep hidden.
The parts of me that seem to be rain down upon me come from lack of security, love and from fear.
Now am I misunderstanding something?
I want to kill it, or is that the wrong approach?
I’ve done readings about it and keep getting the death card.
I dont even know how to do this