Hi, new member still learning the layout- not sure if this is the appropriate section to post this, feel free to delete or move accordingly.
For most of my adult life (I’m 33) I’ve felt a draw towards Azazel, may it be his name popping up here and there, random thought in my mind being the most common.
I meditate on his enn (Eya on ca Azazel aken) frequently, sometimes to calm my nerves, to help me sleep, when searching for something lost (keys, wallet, whatever), when I am angry, emotional…whatever. chanting his enn in my mind has almost become a habit of mine.
First question regarding the immediate: is this abuse of his enn? Should I stop? I wonder if it gets annoying?..
Also this secondary enn(?) that I have come across “Itz rel, itz rel Azazel”, I have never heard of this before until this forum. Can you elaborate on this? Origin, etc?
I had a vision once that I have not since experienced again. Upon meditating on his enn one night during an extremely stressful period of my life, feeling alone and lost I asked “please give me a sign” and continued this enn meditation. Gradually the darkness behind my eyelids engulfed in black fire, as you would picture a wall burning black. I felt the calm as I concentrated on this and held on to it as long as possible.
Do you think this was legitimate contact from him?
Lastly, what are other ways I can subtly connect with him throughout my day that doesn’t involve a drawn out ritual?
I appreciate your time. Respectfully.