Hello this is me Aratna,
I have been in this forum since 2018, but have the courage to actually doing things like evocation and spell casting in October 2024 due to a tragedy.
So long time ago in 2018, I found this website and actively become a reader and observer on how to evoke and how to do magic. At that time, my emotion is not as stable as right now. My main trigger to enter this world is due to loneliness and also due to me thinking that mh ex leave me on my lowest point (and now we are a close friend). In 2019, i met a wonderful guy then my boyfriend and then all wound are healed and slowly i leave this dark phase of me…we broke up in 2021, but we are in a good term.
In 2022 to 2023 i focus on myself, building my own business and also my career. In 2023 i met my evil ex, we dated for almost 1.5 years and then he lied to me saying that he cannot continue to date me because of religious reason and he wanted to atone his sin. And then 1.5 month after that it is revealed that he actually cheated on me… so the dark side of me resurface…
Before actually know his lie i have done 3 love related ritual. A magic love ritual involving Astarte, petition to Astarte to get him back in 1 month, and then evocation ritual to Astarte with the same intention as petition.
After knowing that my ex cheating, i break from doing any casting to reflect my thought on how am i going forward, then my next spell would be a sour jar where in this case i petitioned Belial and Ares to break the relationship of my ex and also sour their life.
The impact of this tragedy also impact my mental health, i really-really enraged by it. So to recover it, i evoke Astaroth to heal my mental health and also protect me in the future during my magical journey and the next day i also evoke Astaroth again for the ability to see and hear her for the next evocation. From what i felt, my mental health has drastically improved and i felt maybe this is due the support of Astaroth (hail Astaroth!).
In this new chapter, i wanted to reach my justice and avenge my ex and his new partner. I am a baby witch, still need a lot to learn and also integrate this activity with my daily routine.