Oh wow, I’m sorry to hear you have had such a struggle with this.
By the power of words I mean that actual words/sounds/vibrations have power. Like neural pathways, or divots on an ancient road, these vibrations have some sacred links to power.
Let me link examples:
The one of I was really looking for was by @Lady_Eva but I can’t find it anywhere! (@Lady_Eva do you know the one I am referring to? It was one of yours about vibrating sacred sounds… I think JHVH hijacked them, something to that extent, and I think I’ve asked you to post it before. going to bookmark it for sure this time!!)
Also, OP, just based on my search in the search tool for “Words” I came up with a lot of great posts by people. I think you could go down a rabbit hole 