I sort of want to know more about your stories and successes or when things went wrong.
I had some stuff go wrong though I mostly work with Angels and briefly summoned Belial, and sort of been trying to make contact with Gods and Goddesses from different pantheons.
I have had a lot of experience with demons when an ex lets say sent some scary attack ones.
I learned to banish them with the waning moon, but when there is a new moon or the moon starts to wane, I have to banish them again.
I know this is a pretty pro demons place, but these entities are sketchy. So you know?
Anyways working with Belial, he said he wanted to create a bridge. I asked the forum about that and they said it was so he can come and go and what not.
So I found out the reason these things don’t stay gone is that they have hooks that they can get back every new moon or wan moon cycle.
So recently I have been starting working more with Angels in 72 Angels of magick.
I just got over an insomnia spell and then suddenly I am strangely sleepy, like not normal sleepy.
Like sometimes it was like a bolt of lightning energy sleepy. Well I have been invoking about 17 to 21 angels every day, contacting the ex, pissing off a strangely vengeful and quick angered guy who works at a magick shop and a possible conflict with another person with powers, working with Venus, Doing some new psychic exercise I learned from my dream and invoking a sigil from the Necronomicon to help me learn astrology faster.
And smart me, not keeping a magick journal, who knows what that was or where it came from?
So I said fuck it and went back to stimulant tantra, to combat the tired then created a ritual to boost my sexual and romantic appeal at the full moon. I was radiating in beautiful sexual energy, I felt super alive.
Dang it, thought about the ex briefly during the ritual, the one who sent me demons and hated my stimulant use. Something to do with summoning him through heavy tantric stimulant energy.
Oh I mean add pills not meth and just a little I did.
I tried not to focus on him but every once in a while he’d jump back in my mind during the ritual.
Occasionally I would still feel tired and I would rest in a more meditative state.
I started seeing Baphomet sort of Pentagrams when I closed my eyes.
I don’t work with demons much as I said but come on the forum and have gotten a bit desensitized to it. So I didn’t think too much of it.
I could sense some of those entities trying to get back in through my Aura. But when they came closer they would either vanish or get converted into the primal sex energy so I figured I was okay, but then suddenly towards the end of the ritual… The candles are supposed to be burned all the way down.
Then suddenly I hear the angels say “We can’t help you anymore.”
Then suddenly I feel some really bad feelings a little like an angelic attack but a little like a demonic attack, it didn’t last long. The angels said quick blow out the candle, but it was almost done and I didn’t. Cause it was so fast and it didn’t make sense.
I then checked the lunar time and it said that my ritual went over and now the moon was waning towards that last bit. Did that fuck up everything? The good energy was mostly gone feeling? Was it the demons? Was it a conflict with something I did with the angels and our agreements?
I then did a banishing ritual to get rid of my unwanted hooks and blah, blah, blah, and I started having signs of a psychic attack, a lot of scary ominous fucked rhymes in my head about being pale and having failed and now I was going to be jailed. I over road it with Kali mantra music and my own chants.
I started working with 72 angels of magick again cause now I have the insomnia spell, so it must be the guy behind much of this obviously yet again. Who is this guy?
And I am getting now mixed messages from them. Sometimes still saying they can’t help me anymore. Occasionally my lightning bolts would get blocked or dark thoughts would try to get me to mess up the words of power or whatever. I felt the scary feeling once during the angel ritual and once when trying to sleep. The banishing ritual didn’t get rid of the insomnia spell and no it wasn’t the stimulants I didn’t have much even.
I still haven’t slept yet but the angels seem like we are getting along better, but I don’t know what will happen next.
sorry it is hard to sum up my question.
I guess that shows you the importance of having a magick journal, but even if I did I was doing so much it is hard to narrow things down though I have an idea.
I am starting to get burned by magick so much that I am becoming a bit of a masochist to it. what a rush. I feel like I am slowly becoming a solider. lol
Anyways that was my last couple of days.
I figure I am just having too much religious dogma in my head that the angels would be so mad or it was the attack or it is all just in my mind or… I dunno?
Poilel seemed very chill last we spoke.
Also if my full moon goes over and it is waning full moon 99.8% does that really make a big difference magically? Will my sexual powers actually start to wan now?
Well that is my story. I think I will go to the gym now.
Anyone else have some stories about working with Angels and running into conflicts?
