I’m glad you found my topic! You helped a lot and some of my “ideas” about these became stronger, what are (very) probably the truth.
The way how He teach me is special, and interesting. I always had the feeling that I needed Him, because He’ll be the right God who help me and the most efficent. He can “handle” me, and His presence, support lifts me up. His personality also!
This Gnosis will be an interesting read soon,
as you go further,
you’ll tell your very own story about it.
I appreciate you sharing it with us.
Oh, It’s my pleasure!
If there is any news what I can tell you (if I get permission from Him for it), I’ll share more. You can’t imagine how happy I am since I contacted Him. I’ve always been strict to myself, and this is why I need a really strong Patron.
I’m trying to focus on learning and development. In turn, I feel something much more deeper towards Him. It’s not just desire and lust. No, it can’t be. I know those well. It’s something different (at least from me).
In a moment I saw Him as a Captain, a Leader of a soldier (I am this “soldier” - and I’m glad I can be), then… something totally different… This feeling haunts me everywhere, and almost all the time (as He do). Naturally I won’t let it distract me from learning, but keep resisting are not easy, at all. And the main question: why am I trying to restist? Maybe I shouldn’t really and this is why am I feeling that He is enjoy this situation?
He sat in front of me.
❝ Let’s play something… […] After you finished your tatto with my Sigil, feel free to touch me. ❞
I stood in front of Him, I had no clothes on me (just like irl). Was so embrassed, can’t say anything just starring at Him, thinking hardly about everything and what He said. Then hold my look on the ground… and after that, I looked up at Him again.
He smiled slightly.
❝ I wonder… how long can you resist? ❞
I felt a lot of (and several kind) emotions in this question.
We haven’t had sex yet. And I don’t know what should I do.
Maybe I should listen to my feelings, and ignore my “brain”?
[ By the way, today is the day when I’ll meet my tattoo artist
and possibly in this week I’ll finish my tatto. ]