Part 2
Actual work (and some thoughts, apparently)
I already described the most notable interaction with Raziel up until 24 days ago. I didn’t go into anything else at the time because I wanted to wait and see results first, but a few interactions are worth mentioning.
For example, Hahaiah. Hahaiah was the first Shem HaMephorash angel I approached using Tempest’s pathworking. I’ve visited her twice so far, the second time mainly because I had promised I would return.
What stood out the most was the way she communicated. After I stated my request, she immediately began asking questions. Not through words, but through clairvoyance and claircognizance. It was like a visual inside the visual. The image itself didn’t directly relate to my request, but at the same time it made perfect sense. It carried meaning without needing explanation. I’ve never had an entity communicate with me like that before. Then again, I’ve never really worked through pathworking before either.
The second thing that caught me off guard was the second visit.
The moment I saw her, I somehow ended up on her lap and started crying. Actual, physical tears. Not out of pity seeking or emotional overwhelm, but because it felt like I had finally reached a place of rest. A shelter. Like I’d been walking for a long time, or fighting something nonstop, and suddenly there was a space where I could just stop and take off the armor.
And no, this is not something I normally do. I don’t cry on entities, and definitely not on their lap. No judgment to those who do, but that’s just not how I operate.
Now, about pathworking in general. I’m an evocation girl. Even though I very clearly got a “no, not yet” from Belial, I still tried to go behind their back and evoke Raziel. What can I say, I wanted to try, It felt important enough. The goal was simple: to ask for a new pathworking directed toward whatever intelligence is relevant to my current work.
So:
TGS → took a while → then the shift hit hard →
Sharp stomach pain (well..hello, it’s been a while) → Distant humming → and then…Azazel. And not in a good mood. Very much not in a good mood.
So what do we do in that situation? Do we drop it? No. We pivot.
I switched immediately into pathworking while still in TGS.
Contact stabilized, the pathworking was given, and, because I clearly don’t learn, I pushed further. I tried to move beyond that into the unknown entity I was aiming for. On the final image, I was transferred into that same place I had encountered before:
I couldn’t see anything. The only thing I heard was a growl. That was enough for me to understand I wasn’t supposed to push further at that point. So I closed properly, thanked the spirits, and ended it there. And as I expected within moments I was deeply asleep.
To this day, I don’t know what that presence was.
I had other…let’s call them spiritual half revelations happening at the same time, so I didn’t dig into it further.
After that (very questionable!) attempt to evoke Raziel, I noticed something interesting. The “watching angels” were gone. Well, mostly. There’s still one that shows up every time I’m gardening (don’t ask who, don’t ask why gardening specifically, I haven’t asked either), but inside the house, that constant sense of being watched is no longer there.
But I did receive a…something though, a form of understanding through claircognizance. Probably half of it. I’m not sure when there’s going to be a continuation.
And I want to stress this clearly: This is my own UPG so treat it as such. I haven’t researched it, I don’t know if it aligns with any established system or if it’s something meant specifically for me. So be warned.
It had to do with the division between LHP and RHP. It’s not really about what kind of magic you practice or what entities you work with. That’s just the surface.
The usual way things are divided:
Light vs dark
Good vs evil
Order vs chaos
…doesn’t actually hold up the way people think it does. These are mostly modern human interpretations. They’re not opposites fighting each other. They’re different expressions of the same underlying structure.
What we call order is what stabilizes things. It holds form, keeps things coherent, predictable.
What we call chaos is what disrupts that. It shifts, breaks, transforms, pushes things into something new.
But neither exists on its own. Chaos isn’t truly chaotic, there’s always some structure underneath it, even if we can’t see it immediately.
And order isn’t inherently “right”, it can become rigid, stagnant and lifeless.
So it’s not about choosing one over the other.
It’s about knowing when to hold things together, and when to let them break. When to stay grounded, and when to step outside of that. And more importantly:
Being able to move between both without losing yourself in either.
Because if you stay only in order, you stop evolving. If you stay only in chaos, you stop holding together. And neither of those leads anywhere on its own.
But they never fail to surprise me when later pieces fall in place and everything makes sense.