Am I cursed? Maybe I’m just genuinely unlikeable. Maybe I’m an unattractive female. Maybe my personality is shit. On top of that I’ve got a few mental disorders which impairs some cognitive function.
I’ve dealt with physical neglect/abuse as a baby from one parent whom I don’t know. Emotional abuse from the other. Bullies in elementary and middle school and assholes in high school. Misunderstood by teachers that didn’t listen and thought I was stupid. Am I just that fucking unlikeable? Am I not friendly enough?
What’s wrong with me? There’s something wrong here. Either I’m a lousy piece of shit or I’m just cursed. Probably not that black and white. But I certainly feel cursed because nearly every aspect of my life is plagued with rejection and misfortune.
I’m afraid to even try to turn anything in my life around because I feel I’ll fail due to some executive functioning problem and/or some curse.
My neglector/abuser was into witchcraft. I don’t know if they were just interested or practiced it or what. If they wanted to hurt me, then they succeeded. I was a baby then.
What’s in my that people dislike or see as vulnerable? Maybe people dislike me or pick at me because they see an easy target. After all, as a kid, I had greasy hair, glasses, braces… I hope this is okay to post here. I’m sorry if not.
Is it possible I could force everything to turn around? Should I try to win over the world? Or just say fuck what everyone thinks? Or should I just try to make myself more fortunate with spells or petitions? What do, crew? I don’t know why I put the monkey. I just did. “Return to monke”
It might be worth doing an egg cleansing. This will help to cleanse you of negative energy. Then you can crack the egg into a glass of water and read the symbols that come up.
It sounds like you’ve had a rough time of things. If you think you might be cursed, there’s no harm in taking a precautionary measure. I would suggest Damon Brand’s book Magickal Protection.
It has a ritual specifically for breaking a curse. Its 33 days, but doesn’t take too long.
It also contains a 33 day master protection ritual, which in my view is well worth doing. I do it each year.
Plus theres a handy and quick twice a day banishing ritual.
Its pretty cheap on kindle and probably my favourite counter measures book
I would recommend a tarot reading by a neutral third party. We often have members offering free readings so I’d keep your eye out for the next offering and ask.
Regardless of whether you are cursed or not by a parent, your experiences of abuse and neglect in childhood have a curse-like effect on your entire life…
It’s not just you, it’s everyone who didn’t get the love and security they needed as a child.
Blockquote What’s in my that people dislike or see as vulnerable? Maybe people dislike me or pick at me because they see an easy target
There is nothing wrong with you. These folks have problems with themselves.
Such people appear in your life because you have had experiences in childhood where you felt unloved and unappreciated.
When we experience an intense or traumatic incident as young children, part of us splits off and suppresses the memory to protect us. But another part of us (the inner child) experiences it over and over again at an unconscious level, causing a negative impact on adult decisions, relationships and health. Our inner child brings us back into similar situations that we know from childhood until we heal the pain and dissolve the negative beliefs and patterns that our negative memories have caused.
So you have to heal that within yourself before the circumstances in your life can change.
You can ask angels and demons to heal your emotional wounds. As a beginner I don’t know exactly who can do this, I think Archangel Gabriel can help. Also, you should ask to free yourself from negative beliefs about yourself, life and the world.
If that doesn’t work, you will have to work on releasing your emotional baggage yourself. There are great methods you can use to do this on your own without a therapist. If you want I can send it to you by PM.
I struggle with the same troubles my whole life, sometimes it feels like doors love to slam shut right in front of me with a loud bang. I had a neglected childhood and all that comes with it. I always sounds either too much or too little to others. Friends eventually reveal their envy, and those who don’t know me gossip about me. All in all… delightful.
Personally, I’m not someone who concerns myself with others. Over time, I’ve learned to see their hatred as a compliment… Because they hate you when they don’t know you… which means, how can they possibly be right? It means they hate you because you have something they don’t or they’re afraid of you. That’s just how people are.
Be who you are and a decent person, and whoever wants can take it or leave it.
Personally, I practice egg cleansing every month, which helps me a lot, but occasionally some curse-like elements slip through, and I can feel someone’s influence. So even performing the ritual by instinct doesn’t hurt… a road-opener would also be practical. I personally create my own, but everyone praises the mentioned one of 33 days! Recently, I’ve been practicing Lilith’s enn and doing shadow work, as well as with Lucifer… because I believe that somewhere I might be creating it unconsciously, and life traumas certainly have an impact on that.
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Hey! There is nothing wrong with you. You had a rough upbringing and dealt a bad deal in life. I would highly recommend that you not spend time on ruminating on whether or not you’re cursed, as this can unintentionally cause you to curse yourself.
If you ever suspect that you are the victim of a crossed condition, you need to do divination. I went ahead and did some for you, and found you do have a simple crossed condition on you. My recommendation is to do a hyssop cleanse and a 13 Herb purifying bath! Both of these can be purchased off various sites! When you do the 13 Herb Bath, pour the water on yourself and recite either the 37th Psalm for jinx-breaking or the 51st Psalm for purification 13 times for 13 days in a row. I would protect after cleansing too! Call upon an angel or wear protection oils.
Your worth is not rooted in how conventionally attractive you are. I know as women, we are conditioned to believe that is all our value is rooted in, but it’s a lie. You are so much more than your appearance. You are a multifaceted, complex human being. This male supremacist idea is designed to keep us subdued as women, to siphon our energy on matters that don’t ultimately matter with regards to becoming more powerful as a class.
Stay strong, and hopefully this will get you out of this rut!
I don’t think you’re cursed, but I think you might have some self-esteem issues. Life is hard and life is not always fair. I’ve encountered hardships in life, too, though I’d rather not discuss details. What sticks out to me about your post is when you asked about “fuck what everyone else thinks”, because that is exactly the attitude that gets me what I want. That, and I absolutely hate people that tell me what I can’t do, which results in even more determination for me. But yeah, fuck what everyone else thinks. It’s your life and your life is about you, so make the most of it. Do what you want with your life, forget about everyone else, and sit back and watch the changes happen.
Hello, I am very sorry that you suffered through all of this.
Many of my struggles are very similar to yours. I have been gradually improving with the past couple of years. I understand how it feels to be totally alone. You can message me if you would like. I swear that I would not judge you. Fortune has placed me in inexplicable circumstances.
I can give you a hint: the way things seem to you might not register as being the same to other people. Many of them are rude to you most likely over very simple things as opposed to what is complicated like what you might be thinking of.
Divination gave me some good answers to how other people were receiving me, or how my actions were being interpreted by them. You can definitely pay for a Tarot reading. I do fear that most Tarot readers tend to “sugar-coat” or idealize the explanations since Tarot is not terribly sweet. You can pay an Indian astrologer was well, since culturally they are a bit more “fatalistic” and preoccupied with social norms (talking from experience).
I meditated on the Divine name of Malkuth (Aleph, Daleth, Nun, Yod; Heh, Aleph, Resh, Tzaddi final) which is the “end result” of the astral influences, and it was shocking how mundane and simple-minded most people are and how… simple things… have such a significant impact on how they would perceive you. To enhance the effectiveness, I had the sigil of Sandalphon and meditated on the four color scales of Malkuth. You can try pinpointing astrological transits in Earth signs, as the element of Earth is of such a grounding and simple nature. A lot of things might have an emotional significance to you, but they are very simple to the other party.
Hello @Unconventional very sorry to hear about that. I am suspecting that planets Moon does not functioning well because of the neglected childhood, not feeling nurtured enough. Saturn could be influencing your moon by a conjunction or aspect toward your moon and Saturn influences on your 1st house too thus creating some kind of ‘unattractiveness’ to the body and mercury for the the cognition problems.
I don’t know what’s your age but normally after 36 or 38 years old things should get more lighter than before.
The only way to nullify Saturn is by working out on your body and personality, your work is gonna be on self improvement and self realization.
With mercury, before sleeping always clean the base of your feet , after washing your feet. Take a lemon , cut it and clean your feet with the lemon juice. Don’t wash off the lemon juice, let it and sleep. There’s a connection between your feet and your nerves
They are also exercises where you press at least 100 times each of your toes One by one before sleeping. This is to make blood flowing to your brain.
With Moon: practice self hypnosis and affirmations regularly about self love. The trauma is deeper in your mind
I don’t know why I put the monkey. I just did. “Return to monke”
, after washing your feet. Take a lemon 
, cut it and clean your feet with the lemon juice. Don’t wash off the lemon juice, let it and sleep. There’s a connection between your feet and your nerves