A month ago, during one of the darker periods of the Dark Night of the Soul, I saw the light at the end of the tunnel. The Light within the Dark.
As insight poured into my mind, I was humbled by this beautiful being. I suddenly knew, that my path would lead me to Lucifer. The light filled this space inside of me, showing me, that Darkness is Light, and vice versa.
I found that my previous beliefs were destroyed, and a part of my perception has changed. And I am grateful for this. But now, a month later, I have been plunged into the Dark Night once again. As I write I understand the beauty of it, but I feel that everything is being destroyed whilst I, continue have to fight off my own mind and ego. And the fighting causes me to suffer.
I have found that things are changing, and I am planning to evoke Lucifer, but I am being patient.
I do not want to rush this process, yet I feel like I am impatient. I feel like I am not willing to go through this Dark Night. My mind seems to think that I should call him in order to get out of the Night. But I feel that this process, has to be done, thoroughly and with no mercy for the ego. And at times, it is very hard. Bringing out all these feelings and beliefs and judgements about everything is tiring.
And I know, that many others are also going through this path. Going through the pain and suffering (although suffering is a choice) that destroys one’s ego.
And that is the beautiful gift the Dark Night of the Soul offers us.
My advice to those who also undergo this cleansing process, would be to surrender.
To give up that which has been holding you in it’s grasp,
To destroy the very thing that has been holding you back for all your lives,
To become the True Being that you are.
I personally am awaiting my Death, for it will come to me and I will surrender.
And I know, deep inside, that as I walk in this Darkness, this valley of Death, I shall be cleansed in the fire, and be reborn anew like the phoenix.
Funny, I was planning to ask for advice and it ended up inspiring and advising myself.
I hope it does to you too. I’ve been in my Dark Night, for 6 years now, and I know that these moments of clarity or inspiration can help.
Seems where I want to go, is not where I usually end up. Especially with writing.
Thank you for reading.