I have a query that has been weighing on my mind for as long as I have had a hand in this field. This pertains to a certain gap in my personal knowledge or understanding which I seek to plug up in present times.
Specifically, it is that I found that I don’t have an actual problem in establishing communication with or reaching any particular entity I so wish. This may occur at any time, or any place as long as a certain degree of focus is attained on my part and there are no hindrances that are too strong.
A very recent example of this may be a communication I established with Sa’ahtlar described in E.A.'s Book of Azazel that occurred while I was sitting in a train, hoping to rid myself of certain circumstances that would impede my academic advancement. A test, mostly. That was to take place in next hour or two.
The procedure was in short, me sitting there in a train focusing myself while surrounded by other people with mental intonations of the words “Tal Shata Alsh-Tu. Tolu Shatu Lam-Aske” followed by “Alash tad al-ash tal ashtu.”
After which, the image of the Gateway of Pacts or Universal circle occasionally crept into my mind. I followed this through by intoning mentally “Sa’ahtlar of Azazel”. And merely repeated this over what was probably just a few seconds up to a minute or two at best. After which I just ‘knew’ that the right connection to the right being was made when I could properly converse with it in my mind.
Why it was clear that it was not some inner voice (to readers who wonder?), it was distinct enough without being overly outstanding and it referred to me in a manner that I didn’t really think of myself as. Nevertheless, I detailed what I needed Sa’ahtlar and had a short conversation before letting it go off to do whatever it must. My instruction was for circumstances arrayed against me essentially be halted and changed in my favor so that I do the best that I can. (Not ace it, just the very best I can squeeze out of it)
Discounting the fact there can be some confirmation bias, later during the test period which was quite a really relaxed thing. At a point where I was fumbling and my own knowledge was insufficient, two of my peers came up to me and just offered me all the answers for the last section. Even though they were seated quite far away.
Thus it was certain that there was some bearing on the situation which I wanted Sa’ahtlar to influence. There’s more to this, but I’ll just cut it short and get to the point.
Despite ‘results’, the fact is to me… is that I have all my (short) life not performed an evocation ‘ritual’ in any way that is remotely close to what basics are normally used in instruction. This probably made me miss out on quite a fair bit of things, like actually ‘seeing’ things. This is probably why Sa’ahtlar referred to me as Blind One in its mental communication.
Clearly, what I so wish for is to be able to properly allow such entities to materialize before me at least once so I can understand for myself what I can do to make it occur. This is what I hope E.A.'s books may do in just letting me get a hands on in some aspects enough to build my foundation of practice.
Oh and the question for those who have more understanding or adept awareness in the readers, what is it that I am managing to do presently? Is there a term which may be easily used to describe it?