A physically-mentally sick kid came back into my dreams after 10 years, and revealed himself as a 'Leviathan-like' creature

Well this is a bit interesting question to answer, and requires a little longer explaining in two different planes.

First of all, I dont want to raise a new (own) family or children in the physical world, not even having physical contact anyone there (sexually). I want to put my focus on 100% my development and my relationships with Deities.

There are a lack of emotional connection towards anyone and almost anything there, basic things what are a part of people very life, while I can’t feel any interest towards those, and I’m sure I won’t because this is not my bussiness there.

But in the material world I can be a very protective, determined and caring being (no matter that I’m mainly not this kind of Spirit, but a weird mixture of everything), who support and defends Her family and kids if the situation requires it without any fear or question - I was also a babysitter several times, and in every case all of these kids started connecting to me very fast and strong, some of them don’t even wanted to leave me, but their mother.

So I can be a good mother, sister or even the head of a family (I am now, because it got proven that I am the one who take care of this small family, not my mother - I have to protect and guide even her), but this is not my main goal or interest, at all.

Practically, some things what perfectly defines me are missing from my physical life, but still very active in my Spiritual life in other planes. For example:

  • I’m a very sexual and passionate, perverse (and sadistic) being, and I enjoy to charm and playing with hearts, emotions, desires [which is still manifested there in the physical world] (no matter the person’s gender, and I’ve changed in this way when Sitri started “to take care of me” - started using my true potential on everyone without boundaries) but I got no real emotion or desires towards people, do not have or want sex with them, not like with Deities. And why would anyone raise a family and husband/lover without any emotion? Of course this would be a bad idea.

  • I’m ready to build a new family and marry with Deities even momentarily (because I’m about to do it - and doing it from my pure heart, soul), but I would never plan that in the material world for a lack of interest or urge, emotion. Which is also showed that there is something else.

So I don’t want to change in my life’s this part.
Don’t want to child, don’t want to family, or a human partner, at all. Because I don’t feel that these would be missing, I know I have Them in other planes and maybe putting my focus on those can be a little divisive situation, but I was always rather spiritually than physically.

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