Within the past week, I’ve managed to do four meditations. The process is simple. First, I perform the Hecate circle casting ritual in Jason Miller’s book on Protection and Reversal Magick. Second, I perform the elemental pillar meditation in his “Sorcerer’s Secret” book.
I should’ve been doing this years ago, but for me very few things are consistent. At least stuff that moves me forward. But I’m trying to do better.
Ideally, I would be doing this once a night. But I’m back in school, and my classes start at 8. I have to get up at 7, when I’m used to getting up at 11. That’s not the worst thing one can be doing with their lives, but I do feel as if it’s pathetic. The point is, on a school night, I tend to put off the ritual.
I think I remember reading a post 1 or 2 years ago about someone doing a 30 day practice with the Drakonian Ritual book. According to the post, the result was that women found him irresistible or something. I think someone else said that women would have dreams about them after talking to them. If any of you are around, I’d like for you to DM and help me follow in your footsteps.
Ideally, my goal is to develop my spiritual senses. In all honesty, I’m not sure if I know what I’m doing. Suppose I get involved with chemistry or engineering. My brother does these things, so he and I are like opposites. If I do an experiment or design a project, I’d be able to perceive the outcome. With magick, it’s different. I do rituals for myself (and family), and so far I haven’t gotten the results I want. Though when I do rituals for people outside of the family, with permission I might add, they come back to tell me things have worked out. Years ago, I was being interviewed for a job. The interviewer told me his wife has cancer. I’m not sure why or how we got to that, but I drew up the sigil to Raphael and told him what to do with it. He disappeared shortly after. Then after a few months, he came back and told me she’s cured. I cannot confirm the result, but I don’t think he’d have a reason to lie to me. It was an odd mix of elated pride and confused frustration. I had a hand in curing someone of cancer, but I can’t move my own life forward? What makes matters worse is that they tend to disappear straight after. And he really could’ve helped me out in the job. Corporate liked to shuffle management around like a shell game. Some were completely terrible, forcing the employees to pick up the slack for their ineptitude. Any that did good were transferred, and being replaced with some dick who undid whatever good was done.
If I could develop spiritual senses, I could hopefully be able to tell if a ritual is working or if I’m just reciting poetry to a statue in the dark. Or I could commune with spirits to learn greater truths. Eventually, I want to astral project and at least see if there’s any other world outside of this one.
Though, a bit of luck with the ladies would be nice. In fact, I feel as if if I could get more of that, I’d be able to concentrate on other things. And frankly, I feel as if it’s better if getting female attention is more of a side effect to something else than a direct intention to one’s actions. As in, I’d rather do something towards an intended goal which inadvertently attracts that attention. Two birds, one stone I guess.
The meditative practice is very recent, and I feel as if I need to stick to it for a bit before I try anything else. Part of the reason I’m so inconsistent with things is because I have a habit of being curious and wanting to try out the next thing before I master the first. Part of that is I eventually start to question whether what I’m doing is what I need to do. But if anyone has anything to say about the specific practice I spoke about above, or if anyone has some better suggestions, I’d love to hear it. If the people who wrote about the Drakonian Ritual thing sees this, I’d be happy to speak to you.