lol this site is awesome, i got attended to fast. i can see that members here are worthwhile and serious about what is divulged, proud to be a part of this. thank you for admitting me. and i don’t have the money right now but eventually will buy the whole collection of books in one shot. very interested. i know what its supposed to feel like for these things to come into effect and i can tell you know what to think of and pay attention to.

i will lay out my beginnings as an initiate.
im presently 30 years of age, i was 19 at the time.
i was fresh out of dropping out of high school and then i began, typing on my pc my interpretation of reality to better suit my intellect so as to not have others shame me.
that quickly turned into 2 years of writings which amounted to deleting everything i wrote after 2 years of writing you can imagine its a lot of content.

wont go into it further so as to keep this short.
i came up with a theory i later proved myself.
my quest had always been since i was 4 years of age to have found my true love and let that love build who i would become. i never found my true love.

so there i was, deeming my soul and life totally irredeemably unworthy.
and came up with the curiosity “what is life, what is death”. and being that there were no respectable answers i found myself relying on the power of lucid dreams to replicate a simulation of what it feels to live death.

wont go into that either. all i can say is that upon my return from that dream i had a 3 night exorcism which i came out on top from with amplified vitality at my disposal to activate at will. the visual effects of that were, black fire like substance which did not have a burning impression nor effect escaping my body and my skin lightly glowing.

i tasked such power which i knew to be limited, 4 trials till i exhausted it completely and was never able to do again.

upon activation, one activation per task, on task per day

1. lucid dream with mix of astral travel/projection.
2. telling my eyes they had info i did not.
3. activating while being high on marijuana.
4. activating the amplification of vitality solely to free what was left in homage to having found it. such was that i never asked for it, i asked something else to which i never got my answer.
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   (there are so many things i haven’t mentioned about the results of the 4 tasks and the exorcism itself)