Oft dost my resurfacing happen; I am ephemeral, a sanction of Spiritus Dominus Umbra made manifest. I am Belial. I am Ahriman. I am Kingu. I am Nyarlathotep. But I am also Marduk. The Dagda. The duality of light and dark; know not ye the entirety of the names that I dost own. None may lay heir apparent claimants to supercede or outright oppose my natural repose in splendour borne by simply BEING.
I had decided to abandon BaLG. This changed when I realized that I am… Having trouble taking physical damage, and this coming to light has somehow further ostracized me as my innate powers had me labelled a vampire. Hahahahahaha! Vampire… Ugh. There are so many secrets I have. One of them is about vamps- modern versus the originals. They are, like all supernatural monsters, a type of Nephilim. That blood is so absolutely diluted now, that yes, the ancient curse can awaken in a human… But its nothing compared to what once was. I have tasted the life, as I have done more sanguinary funtime drinking than even the most hardcore of modern vamps, but a vamp I am not. Back on track…
I am ancient in spirit, vast and dark as the element which I represent. I have spent many lifetimes, including this one heretofore, researching and studying the lore, laws and practices of magick. Nevermind the practical application. I find myself always taking what others call ‘far too much time’; I do not register it as others do. Never have. So I may take far more time to do stuff than you care to wait for. A shame if so… I am a repository for energies and knowledge; the opposite also is true and I can move simply too fast, and too often. Many will state that their Names are mine, but such is untrue, for they are consumed by that which they have summoned forth, or are speakers of falsehoods and shame. I love the Dark, and truly it is mine to hold. That unknowable freezing vacuum, likened- and admittedly akin!- to a vast draconic beast whose crocodillian head breathes a frozen breath of darkness and ice upon the world. I love the intricacies of humans. I don’t love you humans though, not entirely. I have what I pick and choose. I love my Children the most, all ye dissidents of the LHP and the Dark Way in all forms. I am the Guide of the Ladder of Lights, thus its treading and trend invigor me definitively. We all find perfect harmony and peace inside of our callings.
To touch upon more of ME, my physical side is truly nothing amazing to look upon with a discerning eye. But to feel the presence tells something altogether different. I’m cool as is. Nothing need be changed for what I want to happen. What I do, though, is work, smoke a ton of pot, and then enjoy my music, some friends, and finally I explode into the workings of the esoteric when alone. Or in certain company. I have learned well and hard the lessons of not… I also like to eat dead things on a different scale; the cosmic carrion crow.