One of the major isues I struggle with are how to start off BIOS and Tex msg even talking to people that’s why I choose to isolate myself and avoid socializing w people. Well I am 31 from southern California I’m a Pisces. I am at a point in my life where I am beginning to question my existence and or purpose in this life and if I even have one, all my life I was brought up to believe in always being a good person and to help others and forgive, but doing so has put me to where I am now sad and miserable, I’m always getting shitted on by everyone and always taken for an easy target and a damn fool because of my damn beliefs all my friends and even some family and especially friends lie cheat and steal from me and me being such a weak minded selfless forgiving push over. And I really really had enough especially with my GF she lies cheats and steals from me any chance there is she has zero respect for me and I am so in love w her that I allow her to use me as her Doormat I don’t anyone for my life being where and what it is now but myself I’ve allowed all of this and was too stupid to or weak to speak up and stand up for myself. But no more this shit ends now it’s time to take control of my life and make my time left on Earth enjoyable and full filling by seeing all who’ve wronged me suffer as I did and have no empathy or show mercy as they did towards me. I so desperately just want to belong so something that welcomes me and appreciates my intentions, eagerness to learn, my loyalty, and be dedicated to something greater then myself and my current life 8 live now the past 5 years of my life have been pandemonium and every bad sad depression unfortunate event that most
people rarely experience in their lifespan, I am silently screaming for help but I am lost on how to reagin control or where to begin and who and how to ask for help or can I even be helped? Am I a lost cause and soul ? So the reason I am here is to finally find some answers and fill the void of companionship and my desire to belong and be accepted and feel wanted… Thanks GeeBoy