Kept dreaming that I knew someone was after me and I was trying to secure the place I lived-an upstairs apartment with an elevator. I was able to get some locks like you would put on the inside of a garage door to keep it from opening.
I tried that but knew it wouldn’t last. Then I was in an auditorium type room and someone told me it was you that was after me that spelled your name with two y’s at the front. I asked if they meant it with one y. I started to text you then didn’t because I was afraid they were right.
Then I kept dreaming you were standing over my bed dressed in a black robe with a hood. I tried to wake up but felt sucked back into the dream. Then you were standing over me in a brown robe with a hood.
This repeated several times before I was finally able to break out of it and truly awake. I was scared af and got out of bed and made something to eat because I was sooooo sleepy I was sure I’d fall into the same dream cycle again.
What you describe,
can pretty much only come down to one of 2 scenarios:
1.)
I was teaching you,
to prepare you of a real thread on you.
2.)
In case it really was me being the Thread,
i must have had a damn good reason for why i did that.
I was under SEVERE real attacks on me,
for at least half a year by now.
And quite recently,
i’ve made it through,
and successfully hit who-ever was attacking me.
I would really like to talk more about this.
Please switch over to having PM with me.
As far as i can tell,
it kind of could line up.
But there’s been so many false alarms,
by now i’ve grown extremely careful,
to avoid wrong targeting.
However,
i haven’t consciously read your name on the Forum before,
and my Army told me,
my true enemy was somewhat closer then i’d think.
(referencing,
that she’s a very advanced magus,
which to be quite honest,
my attacker must have been strong,
because hitting through like that,
on my level of Defense…
Is a respectable feat.
Sadly, not one that makes me have mercy on someone.
)
I honestly don’t think I have any real connect to you other than reading your name on here. I don’t even always read all of what you post because it’s deep. I feel like I’m not deep enough to comprehend what you write sometimes.
I… understood that yet I feel like I’m missing gaps of things that you know that I don’t. Seems to be the way my gifts work though.
I get a partial message for someone with no idea what it means, or in this case that I was a message and whoever it was for is oh! Aha! I needed that answer.
So. I didn’t mean to do anything but if it helped… I’m glad.
Not because i don’t like sharing my Skills or Knowledge.
But because it’s costum fit,
for a very specific case,
in which i was asked to go out of my way,
completely ignore my own Pacifistic mindset for a moment,
and kill something which can’t die.
And,
i think that’s more then enough information on this.
Evoke me directly,
if you still feel like you need more clarification on it.
an abstract explanation,
why I’ve spent several hours trying to resolve that request yesterday,
in the Topic:
-noted for myself,
since the Unlisting was denied.
Removing my mind from the effort that went into it.
Since my gut-feeling,
yesterday already,
was to talk to E.A. or Timothy about the issue directly,
but i’ve grown to be aware,
that those channels usually get ignored,
when i seek to get them in,
to the work that concerns me.
