I mean this in the most respectful way to these spirits but the very little results I’ve gottne from magick have always had some little shit attached to it.
I’ll keep it basic out of respect for the spirit but recently I feel like a certain someone is pushing me to move even though financially I don’t THINK I can do it. Ok . This is huge goal of mine I kept putting off for awhile. Makes sense.
Madethe arrangments , I might actually be alright granted I live out of my comfort zone for just a little while but that’s life. It’s A spiritual journey so if anything I’m looking forward to it.
Well anyway as of today everything completely fell through. My mechanic or “my guy” had a very simple task. Something I could’ve done it if I had the tools as I’m very mechanically inclined but it would be extremely tedious without them as I’ve also saved the money I would’ve spent on a really good set of those as well.
Anyway just an alignment for my front tires and change my oil and differential fluid. Easy peasy. Man hasn’t even touched my truck yet and knew I said I had to leave today or tommorow.
When he asks for money just gonna tell him to suck. This isn’t the first time he’s done this shit , taken wayyyyyy too long but he does honest work and is a friend of the family so I always have him the benefit of the doubt.
So now I didn’t have a way to work this morning anyway if I decided to stay another week but one of the foreman’s likes to send you home after you put your notice in anyway so I was gonna pull a no call no show.
I can’t even turn my harness and other equipment in to my temp agency so I hope I get my truck back in time to get my last paycheck deposited.
I’ve had a really shitty background so I’m strong enough to pick up the pieces and I kinda wanted to start from the ground up anyway. I’ll be fine. What angers me is I had a spirit agree to things 3 times now and they haven’t been of help.
So somethings going wrong. Either I’m not really telepathically speaking to these goetic spirits( I normally evoke the same 3 or 4 btw. ) or they’re just as lazy or apathetic to my desires even when offered something in return.
King paimon is the only one who’s helped me and he’s made it known he’s not too fond of me but hey , he’s useful. Got a little mixed results with him at first but eventually sorted that out.
I don’t think these spirits are evil but I don’t think they’re as great as everyone on this forum makes them out to be.
Anyone know of any good shamanic systems to practice ? Mostly energy work and stuff like AP? I’m done working with spirits.
Still haven’t decided if these spirits are just self induced hallucinations or external energies. Who have I been clairaudientally speaking to then ? I guess I’m just crazy. I have had some expierence a that seemed very “real” to me. I guess all the “physic senses” are just self induced delusions.
Funny thing is I’ve always felt really drawn to the LHP but it just doesn’t work for me. Atleast not right now.