Chapter 3
The Phoenix with a heart of gold
It was winter of 2020 and it had been winter in my heart for many years. The previous years had been hard and marked by loss, loss of my wife to cancer, my mother had passed shortly after that, and then covid had effectively shuttered my once flourishing business. I hadn’t practiced magick regularly in quite some time. I was over weight with a real risk of developing diabetes and hypertension, I slept to much to try to numb the pain of a miserable and hopeless existence. I needed my life to change, I needed to change.
I discovered BALG in the spring of 21 and immediately woke from my long slumber. The energy and ideas of my fellow magicians steeled my resolve to do better.
I consulted with some of my new friends and decided that I needed to rise from my own ashes, I needed the power of Phenex. The spirit named Phenex that is.
I rehearsed the ritual few times as I was Abit rusty at evocation but got my balance quickly enough. I called forth the spirit in a simple but beautiful garden outdoor setting at sunrise on a Sunday. Immediately when the spirit arrived I sensed a warm and kind presence staring at me. I sensed colors shifting red to yellow, yellow to green and then blue and white and back to red.
“How can I assist you”. I sensed from Phenex. That’s the best way I can describe it. I couldn’t hear spirits especially well at that point but I could feel the spirit anticipate my request and that it was welcome.
I told Phenex everything that was wrong with my life. I tried hard not to rail against the perceived injustices I’d felt I’d been done and just stay focused on the facts.
Then came the formal charge I charged Phenex to transform my heart into the man I’d been years ago when my practice was at it’s prime and I was in the fullness of life and health. Then I gave license to depart and slept.
I slept long and deeply with strange colorful dreams. Over the next few weeks it became apparant that I had in fact changed. I felt more and more like my old self. The curtains of time were pulled back bringing me to a restore point within my own soul.
Gone were the days of being a victim to the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, gone was the need to blame. I was myself again, my better self and boy did I have a messy life to put order to… immediately.
It was at this time I re initiated contact with Prince Orobas who had been watching from the sidelines. I was assured we’d both move on together.
Hail Marquis Phenex you have my gratitude for your spiritual renewal and healing.
