I really am tired of coming on here and having little that I want to add because of the futile attempts at others to argue over gnosis and conjecture.
But since most of us are all on the same page with this issue that this community often doesn’t see eye to eye on some of these issues, I have decided to share something from my first evocations. I don’t mark any of this as objectively true, however, I look back on incredible things I’ve witnessed, and how they revealed the nature of such beings. Many of you hold such entities on a pedestal, expecting that nothing can leave their lips that wasn’t a the will of the creator herself (blessed be she).
The first grimore I used, came at me with significant power. The spirits also recognized me, and gave me excellent instructions that flew in the face of logic, but when I tried them, they provided the most mind blowing displays of power and ability to punch through the other side.
I decided to use the NECRONOMICON
I had no circle except a mental one if that, I evoked to visible manifestation (on accident the first time), and even when I didn’t evoke to such spectacular heights, the presence of the entity was made known, and it MADE IT’S WISHES KNOWN, and if I would not follow them, they would physically demonstrate that it was necessary. However, the entities always give you what you ask for, whether or not you realize it.
In this time, I learned something very crucial that every sorcerer who treads such a path will eventually come to realize or be destroyed by madness.
Many of these spirits are trickster gods, and many of them have a “sense of humor” that you won’t be able to relate to in a tangible sense, unless of course you are the offspring of such a being, or transfigured into one of their form by continually being in their presence via evocation until you are like them, and can exist outside of the mental constructs society has imprisoned you with, because your mind and spirit have been transformed to something beyond that of most people.
Even though the spirits you meet can tell you some pretty incredible things, have loads to show you… You may find they are often times ready to lead you down the path of your own destruction if you are stupid enough to be blindly obedient and do it as they say it. If you are given a suspicious or unreasonable request, you should research it. Some lost their civilizations and kingdoms to such stupidity. Others merely lost their sanity or lives. The message is clear, don’t blindly proceed expecting only good things. Otherwise you deserve to jump off the cliff like a herd of lemmings.
Just run off the cliff, because the spirit told you to.
Because 9/10 times, you will find that other people through their own gnosis are either revealed the same thing, or given a slightly different perspective or understanding that helps lend completeness to a much larger, universal perspective…While not “objectively” real, this “reality” is defined as such, because it is the RECOGNIZED CONSENSUS OF THE GROUP, and therefor is just as real as anything uninitiated people living in mundane consciousness agreed to call “reality” also, because this is what they did. The only difference is that we have opened our eyes, ears, and minds, so we can see, hear, and comprehend what’s actually around us if we choose.
Sometimes blindly following your ideas in this field is something that will alter your life forever, especially if you are prone to flights of fancy like many of us dreamers are.
I don’t say this as some kind of hot shot magus, lord of the sith, master mason, or pope of my own religion.
I don’t know if I can say I’ve had a “traditional upbringing” in a magickal househould, and when spirits dropped powerful shit in my lap, I often used it without proper understanding and had to deal with that.
Just wait until something far beyond your power and ability is dropped into your lap, and see where you take it. A lot of times, I have to use this board to talk to people in their own gnosis, to help me with problems I couldn’t fully discern, or got into a little too fast, and need some clarity to resolve them. That’s what black magicians do, they hunger for power and ability and demand it immediately. Such a path, has its downfalls.
You have to walk a fine line between experience and knowledge attained personally and from adepts and masters of the mysteries. There are still some subjects which no masters have discussed, and the only choice is to attain gnosis at whatever price. You should be wary about taking the first step, it is perhaps, the most dangerous of any path.
Just my two cents, and my magickal rant, take it or leave it as you see fit, for this is how I have approached almost any spiritual material I have encountered.
Best of Luck
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Ever Forward,
-Frater Apotheosis