Handful of various things:
- first time Belial showed up in force, palpable presence in my room, temperature plummeted, and my pendulum started swinging wildly. Very electrifying experience
- doing a pathworking to the Māori god of war, death, and cannibalism without taking a guide with me, he showed up with a horde of warrior spirits who did NOT like the fact that a non-Māori/non-Polynesian was calling. The Belial thing was viscerally alarming but this was the first time I was like “hmmm I might actually have fucked up pretty badly here”
- not hugely frightening but when a bunch of random entities have shown up in my room/temple either in the hypnagogic state or in meditation. Doesn’t frighten me as much as piss me off
- with the Law, there was one instance where I got a huge amount of movement in a really short amount of time, and that kind of scared me in an existential way, and because of the changes to my life it involved I got a bit sad and I flip-flopped, and then something really bad happened to one of my loved ones. I don’t think they’re related (like I don’t blame myself for it) but it was scary as hell because of the real world consequences .
Laugh it off or shrug it off or cry it out, take it as a learning experience, examine what I might have done differently, and then accept the fact that I’m generally constrained to a 3D perception of linear time and I don’t know for sure if that’s the end of it (unless it was time-specific/time-limited)
Never really had doubts. Just kept telling myself that everything always works out in my favour and got on with the next ritual, project, or pathworking.
Because I’m generally curious about everything and I’m not going to limit myself to one system, despite my paradigm. I’d consider myself more of a chaos magician than anything, or at least, a chaos mage approach to the LHP.
See above. Don’t see any point in closing myself off from any branch of magic I find interesting because it’s outside of whatever given dogma/idealogy.