Before you make any more posts about your situation, @voorsli, please do as you were asked to, and properly introduce yourself. I understand your desperation, but it is a rule of this forum, and there are no exceptions to it. If you have the time to write a post like this, then you can take a few to write an intro post.
CLICK ON THE IMAGE BELOW and tell us about yourself and any experience in magick you have, such as what you practice, how long you have practiced, etc:
