I keep having a dream with a common theme that I cannot quite now nail down. I know this dream has deep symbolic meaning I just cannot tell what it means.
The first dream I was on the moon in a vehicle and I was talking over the radio to somebody and they weren’t responding, as if I knew they were listening, but could not speak back. I said “Yeah, my oxygen in my vehicle is running out soon and I don’t really have any more, I guess I’ll just actively wait.” Then the vehicle gave off an alarm and I knew the alarm was signaling that there was no oxygen left in the cabin. “Theres no oxygen left, I’m going to start suffocating.” I said. Then my head started getting fuzzy and my arms and legs started getting numb and the last thing I said was “The lack of oxygen is causing my cells to die, I can feel my muscles and my mind slowly slipping away and dying.” Then I woke up.
Second dream I was in a space suit, and I was with coworkers that I stopped working with a couple days ago, we were at a space station, and I think I was helping someone or something, and after that something hit me in the face and all my oxygen was sucked out of the suit, I was dying. My head went fuzzy like before and I felt my arms getting numb as if they were slowly dying. I was running to a building that had oxygen in it and for a second I thought “I might as well lay down here and die, because I’m not going to make it in time.” But I decided to mush on anyways. I felt as if I was about to die and I was moving slowly (becuase of the low gravity, but I felt like something else was sluggishly holding me back instead of just that.) I made it inside the space station, and two coworkers were there and they just looked at me as it they didn’t comprehend how close I was to death. I was worried about all the brain cells I lost and I said something as if to brush off the whole experience.
I have several things happening in my life, and I was wondering if it might be tied to these things or maybe its not tied to them at all. Also I’d like to know how you guys get so good at dream interpretation, as I’d like to learn how to do this myself. If you have any references that are useful please let me know.
Now, I have been working on getting into deeper trance states like the rapture state and crossroads and am making VERY, VERY, slow success each day. Some days are better than other, so it could be that.
I also have entered a pact with azazel, and he seems to be really helping me out on my path for sending me things in my dreams, I things azazel might be trying to tell me something, as I am not advanced enough to see or hear him yet, so we have to speak through visions or dreams.
I am also learning about the qabbalistic tree of life and studying the thoth tarot.
I just quit my job because of a false rape allegation and because the place was holding me back.
Please help.
