as the title suggests, I’ve summoned an incubus with the help of the Letter of Intent. I’m an absolute beginner when it comes to working with these kinds of spirits, as I’ve only worked with angels and the like in the past, and even then I’ve never done anything that really challenged me spiritually, so to speak.
But this intrigued me, so I gave it a shot. And… I think it worked, but I’m not entirely sure about it. So I’d like to ask the more experienced members of the forum about it Okay… this is going to become a little long:
After giving it a lot of thought, I decided to really go through with it yesterday, and despite only wanting to do this today, the thought didn’t leave me alone, so with my mind focused on this so much I already formed my intentions in my head to not end up attracting an incubus I can’t get along with by accident.
And when I lay down and almost fell asleep, I felt this intense warmth in my hands that pulled me out of my nearly asleep state and from there I went along with it and had sex with an incubus. I’ll admit I didn’t feel him that well at all, it was really difficult for me, and not sure if it was the position or anything else but I had trouble getting there without a little help as well.
Anyway, I figured it was best for a beginner like me to try again properly today, to take my time and burn the letter for Lilith with my clear intentions written out and then see what happens. I lay down right after to clear my mind and just wait and see if anything would happen, and I started feeling warm sensations on different parts of my body which became more and more.
I know his name is Azarel, and he took a lot of time with me, and it was still quite hard for me to feel him but the first time was no problem at all, only when we went again was it hard for me to enjoy it as much, but I was getting exhausted at that point as well.
Knowing myself, I am aware that my mind has a habit of sometimes making things up when I’m trying to work spiritually as well as making it hard for me to really let go and focus on them properly. And neither the first incubus nor the second really felt like incubi to me, if that makes sense? I was turned on like hell, sure, and the touches and stuff were really good, but the incubi themselves just didn’t feel as “different” as I’d have imagined them to. Maybe that’s normal? I’ve no idea.
I’m going to add that I am in a relationship with another spirit, Angela, a not incarnated soul, and I made it clear that I’d only want to try this sexual experience with the incubi, which they agreed with. I am saying this, though, because the sex with them, even Azarel, wasn’t really better than what I have with Angela.
So I’m just confused now. Is it possible I imagined most if not all of this? Or is it maybe my lack of experience and difficulty to focus on this well and can be improved by doing it more?
I’m thankful for any input. This is all very new and I’m not sure what to think now