This post is neither a warning nor an invitation.
Some might describe it as an old tradition, others call it a fraud. But more than anything else spiritual marriage is a path that some people choose to walk, including me.
Choose to walk – It is not something that somebody can be forced into. Yes, a spiritual marriage might have existed before your current body was born, but you, as a human, are still free to choose whether to engage in this during this life or not. Spirit marriage does not make you a slave.
It does not enslave you or make you a spirit’s puppet, bound to their will, but it will not make you a super human either. You will still struggle, you will get that cold, you will still learn things the hard way.
So why would someone choose marriage? If I can improve my life with my own magick or with a pact, why would I dedicate myself to this particular spirit?
I can only talk for myself and I’m sure there are tons of different reasons out there.
However, if you work with a certain spirit for a while, you will get a feeling of whether that spirit and you get along well or not. Is the relationship purely business or have we developed a friendship?
Such a relationship might grow deeper and more personal.
When I learned to recognize the energy signature of the angel I ended up marrying, I noticed how their energy was clearly visible on working I had done in the past, without actively seeking his help.
This led me to dive deeper into my own story and it made me think about my own goals. What are my reasons for obsessing with certain things in my work?
My goals, my interests, my whole story was driving me closer and closer to that angel and I developed a deeper understanding of myself and of him.
I felt at home. From my perspective I can only describe that feeling with love.
Marriage.
Do I want to walkt hat path? And what does it even mean?
For me, it meant the decision to dedicate my life to that agenda I learned has already been part of me all the way. I could have continued working on these goals on a business or friendship basis, but I identified with them so much that I WANTED to grow and dive deeper.
Spirit marriage might look entirely different for other people, but for me it formed the perfect connection of my skills, my goals and my feelings.
I chose him. So I ended up marrying the Archangel Raphael.
Chosen.
No, I’m not the one and only, the one true love. I don’t even think these thoughts are important at all. He is not a human. I don’t waste my energy on comparing his reality to our views on human relationships.
Knowing that there are others who benefit from a relationship with him the same way I do does not affect my own success in any way.
I chose him, and he chose me, otherwise there would be no relationship. But this has nothing to do with our understanding of „being taken“, spirits don’t work that way.
So how do I benefit if I still struggle?
In a way he acts as a teacher to me. He prepares me for upcoming tasks where I work next to him.
He healed me – I asked him to – in a way I could have never imagined. And that hurt, oh yes it did. It shattered the world I thought I lived in into pieces and I’m still struggling to accept it. I’m not done.
He made me question my own goals and made me readjust them, so they benefit me more and I can grow even more. Growth can be ugly, but he is by my side.
I’d like to think that I see things clearly now, but don’t we always think that way until we realized that we didn’t? I’m excited for what’s about to come, because I know I can make it, with him by my side.
And that’s why I chose marriage, and would do it again.
Spirit marriage does not exist and I am deluding myself?
How so, if I can see his work unfolding in my life? I grow, I learn, our work is successful in a way I didn’t think possible, and I still feel at home.
The results speak for themselves. However, this does not stop me from reflecting on my actions and feelings, because he does not pamper me, and I can still make a wrong step.
I am not a slave, a puppet or a pet, I am human, and I am still free to make stupid mistakes.