Update
Long time no post sorry
I feel the road/path to become “trully a God” is so difficult! So lord belial said “you must find spirit couple”
So i try to find spirit couple (i dont know what is spirit couple (maybe wife)) lol
It try to contact many “female” demon! Lilith naamah but nope we dont have any agreement (no deal)
Yesterday, i tried to relax myself! I remember to call pagan Gods (i’m not from satanist community)
I don’t know why i’m very interested with dragon God, i remember about Ryujin in japanese mythology!
So i call him! It’s simple ritual, i do the ritual in my bathroom (in mythology he is god of the sea water element)
I chant his name chant his name! And i feel buzzz, i feel my body hovering, and raging sea cover and surround my body and atmosphere
He said
"i’m leviathan, i have known in many generation, many culture, with many names
I’m Ryujin, Shenlong (chinese dragon), Tiamat, Naga (indian dragon), the Old serpent (bible)!
I have existed since the beginning of time! All gods, demons, universe emerged from the nothingness/chaos, and i’m the sea of chaos! The sea is not bad or good, it’s unpredictable force and power!
Many people has written about me! They created my mythology! And from the myth, Religion was created!
Religion culy myth are the sea of illusion! Many people including you, failed in your journey! Because you are trapped in illusion! People are bound in ignorancies, they are called Community, skin color, culture, race privilage etc
I’m the sea of chaos, i’m not bound by any culture and nations
The myth and religion created by Man, and ignorance people will worship the deities that created by Man!
They are not worshiping the true deity! They are just worshiping “the man’s made deity” (egregores)
You must go out, and release yourself from the chain of illusion, and see the truth! So you will become a God! You wil not be bound by any cultures boundaries or territories
Then he said
Satanist are trapped in the eternal struggle about chaos vs order! You need the order, to make a progress in your life! But the order come from the chaos! So from this perspective, people try to make a myth, marduk slay tiamat, angel defeat the dragon! It’s just a myth! It’s not about chaos vs order! It’s about harmony between chaos and order! Order must existed, but the order born from chaos!
Fantastic experience bro!
And when i slept, i dream about giant black dragon protect me and guide me! He can change his appearance to giant snake or serpent
He is similar like that
The Old serpent, leviathan, ryujin or shenlong or whatever you call him
I think, the jouney to water element has begun Lol