Feeling? Or knowing?
Or, is it that you want that to be the case?
(I promise I’m not trying to be a dick. We have to examine all the angles here)
Which is this right here:
Imo, there was probably no need to make a new thread about this, though I can understand the desire to generate quicker attention with a new one.
That said, I read through that other one and believe a lot of the advice you received holds up.
In that other thread you mentioned that you have mental illnesses. You also mentioned ptsd.
So the question I must ask is whether or not this could be related to you mental health?
But heres the part I think is important:
That’s a lot to unpack.
Why do you need a baby for your life to have meaning?
Does a baby represent a form of validation to you?
Why do you feel that you’re disgusting? Do you really believe that? Or is it a symptom of your mental illness that makes you feel and believe these things?
Are you perhaps externalizing the problem and blaming it on “parasites”? (or rather, perhaps they’re thoughtforms being generated when you become stressed, etc.)
To me, that says they’re small fry. Barely more than thoughtforms probably. (Just my opinion, I’m hardly an expert by any means)
That said, if you had sufficient protections and wards in place they should be getting fizzled out like flies in a bug zapper I would think.
So then why choose to believe you’re the recipient of someone’s active hexing?
The thing that bothers me about this kind of thinking is it’s too convenient to assume someone decided they’ve got an axe to grind with you and are out to destroy you. (This also paints a victim narrative and operates from an assumption of being victimized)
Kind of like how superstitious folks might want to say “witches did this!”
Step back and examine. How many active practitioners do you personally know that may even want to expend the effort on such a thing? And apparently can’t be bothered to make strong “servitors” but would rather send a bunch of measly ones like a hoard of flies?
All that said, have you tried @anon97554939’s Luna?
As far as finding your enemies:
Suhgurim of the necronomicon is for finding the enemies of the witch/magician.