Now don’t take this the wrong way but…
First off your attitude is all wrong. Your expectations are all wrong, and your approach is all wrong.
First your attitude, you are in a victim mentality, when you should be in a victory mentality. Whether you say “I can’t” or “I can” you’re right.
Second, your expectations need to be realistic, results are never immediate, well sometimes they are but not usually for people just starting out. You also have to know what to look for. King Paimon is not going to suddenly appear in your kitchen in a puff of smoke he could, but it’s not likely, he will more likely be subtle, a subtle voice in your head that if you don’t shut up your own negative thoughts you won’t hear. He may appear as a blackbird and fly overhead or land near you to let you know he’s heard you. He may use random numbers such as seeing 4:44 on the clock or on a licenceplate of a car. He may communicate with you in the form of synchronicity such as strange coincidences that stream together to form serendipitous events. This all goes back to attitude because if you are too busy feeling sorry for yourself you will miss the signs that are everywhere. As far as results are concerned you must keep in mind that the gods won’t do for man what he can do for himself. If you do magick to get a job but don’t bother checking the want ads or ever ask for an interview you might as well skip the magic too. You got to meet the spirits half way, they can help in many ways but if you don’t take some initiative it’s pointless.
And for your approach, this whole system is about self evolution and development, it’s about growth as a person an individual and the whole. It doesn’t do much good to summon a spirit to your bedroom if you don’t even have the psychic awareness to realize it’s there. You need to work on not necessarily growing your psychic senses but noticing that they have always been there and that you have simply not paid much attention to them. In today’s world everything is loud and in your face but in the psychic world it’s subtle and fleeting and if you don’t observe diligently you will miss it.
This meditation helps you to calm your mind and put the distractions aside to open you up to the subtle messages from your subconscious mind that’s trying to relay information to you.
Now I would wish you good luck on your path but that’s not what you need, what you need is the will to put in hard work and grow yourself. Cheers!