One of my first real contact with a spirit was Belial, i had become interested in demonic enns so i started saying his to commit to memory for when i was ready to evoke him, but i found out that night if you speak things like that out loud they show up, that was also the first time i experienced sleep paralysis, i thought at the beginning of it that there was a large spider on my chest (not cool) even more not cool as when i realized it was a hand, ok i admit i started to panic and that’s when i got hit with a blast of feeling that became words and it said “you can keep going on like that and this will become the worst night of your life or you can relax and go with it” I chose the latter and so we had a long talk about many things, most of it now lost to me as i passed out for about 12 hours right after it was over, but what i do remember might be of some help to you.
Back then i was struggling with ideas like are spirits just part of the human mind or outside of it, why i’m not seeing spirits as they are described (by the book) etc, to the first, Belial said spending even a minute worrying about that is a waste of time, we humans reach a point where those two concepts stop mattering at all so just pick one and run with it.
To the second, he said i was ignoring the internal for the external, in that back then i really had the thought that this whole thing would be like star trek beam me up scotty and i guess it still can be but Belial said the fastest most direct way a spirit communicate with people is through us, our subconscious and for better or worse they bring all of our crap with them most of the time, and more importantly when i’m looking at that point on the wall trying to see someone sitting on a camel that other image that keeps popping into your mind, that’s what the spirit is trying to show itself to you right now as, who cares what someone said they looked like 1000 years ago, and again focus all of your attention on your goals for that’s the only thing that really matters. So take that as you will, there was a lot more but soul travel always leaves me at a loss for words on how to describe it to other people.
Here’s two more funny little things when i was working with Paralda i asked to hear “the voice of the king of air” and for the next week i and others kept hearing this eerie wind in the living room of the house i was at that time, after 5 days i thanked him and burned his sigil, and then right after that one of my roommates said a computer game was left on and the sound was the load screen, a coincidence maybe but the speakers were not on and to my knowledge no one had played that game for months, that showed me that spirits just like people well take the path of least resistance to give you what was asked for, and many of them have a wonderful sense of humor.
Mepsitahl, if you have not worked with her, she’s about the nicest spirit you can meet, but the telepathy that constitutes most communicate between people and spirits was not enough for me, i needed to hear with my ears what she had to say, not quite sure what i was expecting but it was not her channeling through me, all of it was very nice and inspiring but when i realized what was happening…Well it was definitely a WTF moment and a very physical feeling of her moving into me and then moving out of away, and it showed me it’s best to have a voice recorder going when they decide to do that. i’ve since heard many things with my ears and i’m still never prepared for it and don’t think i’ll ever be 100% comfortable when i have one inside me,
All that was in between november of 2012 and february 2013, so if there is a point to anything here it’s all this is a process the more you do it the better at it you will become, ok i’ll be quiet now.
