Try reseurching the Hunters of Monkeys!!!
I’ve had great success with bringing awareness about encagement back into my direct perception.
I kinda Forced myself to Aknowledge,
that i can’t be fully enslaved,
like the monkeys captured by their tales,
For the physical truth being completly ensuring These momentary perception of enslavement being wrong.
It’s something i learned very way back down the road…
It Control the Body, use the mind.
To Control the mind, use the Body.
When both Need to be controled equally,
use your heart.
it’s stronger then all of your mind,
and it’s literally the running blood phine of your own Body.
So you can completly push down Forces which overcome you momentary,
at least to a degree from that on you can work it back, and see what is up exactly.
Also,
i strongly suggest to consider how your Meditation works:
my main Meditation System is based on letting go,
to Keep a free, clean space to operate from.
Especially when someone altered his Body and mind as extensivly as we magicians do it,
it can be extremly helpful, to realize how strained and pressured your Body feels,
and activly relax it, Change temprature,
as well as becoming soft and easy again.
Becouse especially when we are “bitten” into something,
it sometimes feels like you’re under full complete strain, but can’t even see it,
being in a kinda burning, firey, delusive momentum.
Just consider, everything you do, you affect someone, he entangles to you, the affect may affect you aswell.
That’s exactly those Moments,
where “self-forgiveness”, helps tremendously.
Like, from what i’ve seen in Magick,
there are situations we deal with death curses and stuff,
where you got to Keep sane and secure,
in order,
to accodringly counter-act it.
And, especially for Death-curses,
they can be quite trickey.
They can bounce quite a lot,
before final execution.
Just glad, i found such a matching target,
to de-simiulate it,
and become completly free and whole from it.
Just remember:
Death represents Change.
But focusing onto lenth,
Change becomes smaller.
So when you have A next to Z, and no more room left to operate in between?
Become Aware, that These are just Symbols.
And there is much more then just These Symbols.
Kindest Regards,
¥’Berion