First thing why are you doing magick what are your goals check my post above.
Next pick one area in your life that needs improvement. EA would recommend going up the list from mallows hirachy . Basic survival, then girls then more security connections etc etc.
Learn some basic divination. I use tarot but lady Eva has some oracle technique good for beginners check that out.
Start with small goals and do spells for them, basic candle spells will do like EAs love spell. Any from the ebook. Small successes will build your confidence and motivation and can be built up on.
After that learn basic evocation again start with small goals that are achievable yet slightly out of reach. Make the goals bigger as you go along.
KEEP A JOURNAL!!!
Diary, book of shadows whatever just make sure you document your attempts and the results youāll look back on it and track your progress and see how far youāve come.
After that one basic meditation technique to do daily even for 5 mins every day will help you a lot. I use bija mantras and blue ray.
Magicians sharpens their mind, they concantrates the mind, for gaining power. Meditation is opposite of this, it is no concentration. In meditation, you just watching your thought to separate mind from awereness, until the mere awereness remains.
Concentration is active , meditation is passive side of your consciousness
" To train the mind to move with the maximum speed and energy, with the utmost possible accuracy in the chosen direction, and with the minimum of disturbance or friction. That is Magick. To stop the mind altogether. That is Yoga." Crowley
Iām somewhat maybe okay at relaxing type meditationā¦very rarely.
But canāt intentionally focus my mind on a visualization, physical sensation, breathing, heartbeat, or the like for much longer than a nanosecond.
However I kinda do that almost unintentionally while reading about it and then mistakenly thinking I can do whatever tutorial Iām reading, I put down the tablet, try to do it, and then get absolutely nowhere.
For example, I could be reading something online that says something like
(āclose your eyes and breath in slowly. Now visualize an apple. What color is it? What shape is it? What do you hear? Now imagine touching this apple while standing on the beachā).
Now while reading that or something similar, it seemingly works great like a guided meditation and Iām actually successfully doing it (minus the closed eyes part)
but then I try to put down my device and do it more intentionally and in full immersion and instantly find myself nowhere near even able to begin and I have no idea why.
You can begin visualisation training. Even a few second blurry visualisation is a success for a beginner. Step by step you will learn hold images longer and you will visualise clearer. Like building body muscle, build your magical muscle step by step.
After the images, there are hearing, touching, smelling, tasting visualisations
Iām great at visualizing clearly and for several minutes but not when it becomes a meditation.
Not when trying to add immersion and or the other four senses.
I can visualize an object such as an apple or a banana very clearly but then it all just falls apart when adding other sensory details, a background, and or just imagining myself inside my visualizations.
I can visualize the apple but I cannot hold the imaginary apple in my imaginary hands while standing in the middle of an imaginary beach.
And I cannot make myself feel the physical sensations of holding the visualized apple or standing on imaginary sand.
I canāt really taste imaginary food very clearly either.
As I said, you should progress step by step. Your visualisation is like body muscles. You are just forcing your visualisation into what it canāt take. It is a natural process.