…and all I got is a HUGE zit on my forehead, maybe I did it wrong?
A little humor for your Friday.
This will be a rant, well it will be my attempt to vent my frustrations. So if you don’t care, or think that I am full if shit, I advise you to skip this. I will try to be as level headed as I can.
I have been pretty steamed over the last little while. To the point where lastnight I seriously thought of leaving this site behind me.
And then this morning I followed Poete’s link to WF, and I was hurt to see that apparently people think that I, along with others on this forum, have Koetting’s cock down my throat. I like his books but, Koetting fanboy I am not.
When I joined this forum I was not naive enough to think that everyone here was the best of friends, but I did notice that for the most part people were cordial to one another.
Bit members like Cloud9, kitari, redcircle, Bran, S.V.E. and others are in short supply. Don’t get me wrong there are some amazing mages here, but I noticed that they don’t post much. We like to throw EvocationMagick under the bus but this place came to resemble the parts of that forum that we publicly decry and hate.
So lastnight I found myself asking why I came here in the first place. Well I came here to test myself. I will be undergoing my first official training soon, everything up until this point has been me reading books and call out to the spirits by my will alone. I noticed that I got some results, but I wasn’t sure if I was just mentally masturbating. I wanted to ve sure. I sent out four talismans, scared as FUCKING HELL. I put myself out there because I NEED to know if I really can effect the world around me. So far…so good. I still await the day when TWF, Serell, Musta, or Elison publicly tell me that I was either right or wrong, either it worked or I am full of shit. If I am full of shit it will hurt to hear it, but at least I will know. I am, if nothing else, sincere.
So, no… I am not going anywhere. I made a promise to myself to take up the Runes for 24 days and share the results. So I will. After that, I will continue to flap my gums here. Many of you have inspired me and I hope that a newer magician may be inspired by something that I said here.
As for all the talk about Poete, and Necro and EA
Well I don’t “like” Poete, but I respect that he will call me on my shit. I may get offended when he does it like an asshole but, hey he is on his path too.
Necro and I have had our debates. We both dissagree vehemently about race and sexuality. You know what though, he is a talented sorcerer. He is a 19 year-old kid with some growing up to do, but I am a 28 year old kid with some growing up to do. Point is, don’t let him scare you, if he curses you learn to break curses. At some point in your magic journey you WILL face a curse, better to learn now.
EA, I like his books. I think the marketing is over the top ( and no I don’t own all his stuff) I have heard everything from “He is the greatest ever.” To “He stole all his material” you want though? It works, I have made positive changes in my life thanks to what is written in EE.
So that is it.
Never mind me, just blowing smoke.