Something overcame me again last night, I really wanted to figure out who keeps semi-possessing me like this. I have a feeling it is Aiyrn, my familiar, because he always goes missing when these feelings of powerful control come over me and he was sent to me to aid me with matters that require creative thinking so, put two and two together here. When I feel this way, his name always immediately comes to mind and I honestly have never sat down and said is that you? Because when I enter this state of mind and when I even think about asking questions as to the identity of my possessor something says “Shut up, don’t ask questions, just write what comes to mind.”
I feel as if there is no time for questioning things and I do not feel threatened when this male force overtakes me as I feel relief, solace, and wisdom overcome me. I do not feel one single shread of fear. I know that I am in good hands. So I ignore my human needs and just write like there will be no tomorrow, as if I have a deadline and must have a certain amount of new content written by tomorrow. Last night, I felt like I was no longer alone in my body and the urge to write instantly took priority in my mind. I stopped everything else I was doing, pulled up Microsoft Word and began to type. I was amazed to find at 4:00 a.m. this morning that my book in progress went from being 18 pages long to 81 pages long in just 7 hours.
Writing a book was not my first plan for sharing information with others but it is something I have had on the backburner for quite some time. Before, the reason I never fully persued this was not because of procrastination, it was honestly because I was afraid I lacked experience and enough helpful content that make a book useful to others, but it has been 6 years since I last got the urge to write and now I do know that I have more than doubled my magickal experiences since then and have also expanded to incorporate darker magick into my path so now, armed with more experience than ever before and a trusty and helpful familiar at my side that has a knack for spurring spontaneous creativity, I feel confident that I could actually handle writing a book now that would actually be useful and not just full of theories and useless facts that every other author has already wrote about in their books.
I was looking over the submission guidelines today for submitting to BALG a proposal to become a published author under their label. I am getting ready to download to the author’s guide and form a proposal letter for Eric. I hope they will give me a fair chance, as I am sure they receive many proposal letters a year and most of them are probably not the kind of materials they are looking for, mainly submissions from those just hoping to get famous or well known without actually having anything useful to contribute to the BALG movement. I’m sure all publishing companies have to deal with that.
Based on the criteria, my book so far, seems to have each of the 3 requirements for submitting a book to BALG for publishing consideration. I guess I will just have to try and it see. The worst that could happen is that I get rejected and they tell me to try again when I have more content that they find useful. I don’t care either way, if they don’t accept me I will find another source. I know it says they will accept a proposal letter even if your book is not done yet but if I do that, I may end up adding something even more useful afterward sending them my letter, but something tells me to go ahead and read over the author’s guide and contact them anyway. I feel like there is a strictly set window of opportunity here for some reason.
Should I go ahead and file for copyright of my book before contacting them? You don’t need to have a completed book to file for copyright, the government only requires you to download a copy of like 10 pages from your book anyway in order to meet the copyright requirements. I don’t think Eric would be dishonest, but people have been screwed like this before and I genuinely don’t trust anyone due to past experiences in my life.
But the book I am writing is not for beginners, I feel that there is only so much you can teach a beginner before moving on to the more advanced subjects and there are probably like 100 authors or more out there that have already covered the beginner basics, so I feel like if I did a beginners book I would be covering the same old shit, different author. This book is for intermediate magicians. I will not reveal anything more than that. But I also have plans for a book and grimoire for adept magicians as well.