Good day, more or less.
I got the morning prayer/invocation, the “confession”, and magician prayer done before leaving the house.
Since I knew I would have an hour where the others were going on a guided tour I had no interest in, I used that to my advantage. I got the sun breathing, Inner Temple, and Noon invocation/prayer out of the way. I also did the Lesser Ritual of the Pentagram, and the Greek Cross, knowing I would do them in the evening.
So, when the wife was driving them home, I only had the cleansing, purification, and the evening prayer/invocation to do.
Yet, those moments throughout the day had meaning.
During the Inner Temple, I finally asked about the Blackness. Hera’s room was black, More’s was black, Pluto’s was normal (for him), as was Zeus’.
I finally asked Zeus about it “work is being done there. (Kindly) Don’t interfere (to get the most benefit).”
All right. I wasn’t getting more than that and I would really like to know why I sometimes feel those deity’s external influence, but that will have to wait.
Persephone-Nephthys continues to come in a bubble Persephone form that throws me off a bit. I literally called and asked Hecate to verify. Nephthys seems a differentore somber aspect than Persephone when I interact with her, so there was legitimate concern. Having the entity verified helped. I am the paranoid, cautious sort. Just because they don’t mean harm, doesn’t mean they’re going to help…
But things were fine. My “sins” were further purified. Which seems silly, since the “ego”'s since aren’t the higher spirit’s… Clearly, I’m going through this, but I consider some of this purification a bit…much. Still not convinced we’re not creating a personal “god” or “godform” - and imbuing it with all of the supposed ‘purity’ that one or a few RHPers determine are “right”.
Yet, Hecate has asked me to for his for my own benefit and not hers. To my knowledge.
Sorry, my natural paranoia, honed by the Infantry, is coming forth. Valid questions and concerns. And I won’t be able to answer them without doing the work…
Regardless, the day’s work is done.
Helios did not.me up to help someone with a similar technique to yesterday, one step removed for safety’s sake. I spent about 30 minutes on the sun breathing, instead of the 5 it calls for. Excess energy collected got dispersed to different people in need.
After all, skills that aren’t used get rusty or break. Use them for the change you want to see or watch others create the world you live on.