I canāt imagine at all. The only time I can do so is when I am falling asleep, because the part of the brain used for imagination is different than the part of the brain used for dreaming. I fall asleep rather quickly so I wouldnāt be able to do it then.
For me, there is nothing when I close my eyes and try to envision. I cannot see his clothes, or his face. Itās only dark, aka: blind.
Iām not a particularly visual person, and Iāve found that my general visualization is aided with a bit of sensation added to them - that is; imagined kinesthetic, auditive, touch, and even gustation and smell. If you have a hard time seeing the visualizationsā¦ try feeling them.
Now I donāt know about vizualization and evocation like you say but it got me curiousā¦ How do you feel in his presence? Is there any background sound? Any scent of smell that you notice? Do you sense any movement? Sometimes the other senses can help kickstart the visual oneā¦
Thatās okay, I just wanted to get a grip on the boundaries.
Seems like evoking into an object (idol) which is probably one of the oldest forms of evocation may be for you, that way you donāt need to structure using your mindās eye.
I posted a thing about that below:
E.A. talked about use of idols to faciliate evocation, in this:
When I invoked Duke Sallos, I didnāt see or hear anything- but I did feel something.
After I invoked him (the air felt as those it was squeezing me slightly), I called out to him as I walked the dog in the evening. The air didnt change this time, but I felt a tightening in my hands and throat.
Today I have been calling his name softly until I feel a physical presence on my body.
Perhaps Sallos already knows I cannot visualize, so he shows his presence that way?
Yes, a feeling of presence, hearing, even touch and scent, are all methods spirits will use. Very few people get full-on visions right away, and some never see a spirit but will sense them in a manner of other ways, and their contact is just as good, their work just as powerful as someone else.
Iāve been facing this issue recently, and Iāve tried looking at a photo beforehoof to no avail. Seems that Iām better with an image I saw a while ago, glanced at, thought yeah whatever than one I drooled and ogled over. But I just love drooling and ogling over the beloved and I get a fairly feint visualisation.
What I do get, are sensations. What I take to be his smell, aftershave as opposed to feet, farts and burps, occasional stroking, heat in certain areas, an urgent pressing and pushing into me - use your imagination for this. His voice, which oddly is lower in visualisation than in reality, but itās him.
Iām probably doing it all wrong, but Iām ok with it. I wish I could get the full technicolour 3 d holographic special some purport to have, but I guess horses arenāt made that way.
Yes some people do have very poor visualization, and some lucky get crisp bright images.
Thinking about his scent and voice would actually work really well, I cant visualize appearances but I can hear sounds in my head. Iāll have to try this, thanks!
Yes totally, E.A. used a rock that was formed correctly and which drew him for Ningizzida, and svayambhu idols (formaed naturally and then maybe carved a little to enhance) are considered the most holy in Hinduism.
And thatās relevant becaus ehwile H., is a religion, it also has at its heart the evocation of a god into a formed idol to interact and receive offerings, hear petitions, and grant blessings.
Oddly enough President Marbas when he visits takes on the characteristics and is more solid so to speak - heās felt quite 3d and I āsawā him in my periphery - itās hard to explain.
If you look straight at, thereās nothing but through and around and heās THERE - the great big glorious man mountain. Yum.
Lean back and he supports you, hold out a hoof and he grabs it and strokes it.
i dont think visualization is necessary for straight up evocation. it may even be an advantage. Certain forms of sigil magick requires you to visualize what youāre after, but evocation requires a quieting of the mind until you get into what is called the theta state. Once there, you call upon the entity verbally through mantras or whatever. I say your condition may be an advantage because getting to the theta state requires you to have a quiet mindā¦and if youāve got nothing going on up there anyways, wellā¦there ya go.
Even in sigil magick, the need for visualization can be circumvented by creating your own sigils, where you write out a statement of what you desire, take the letters and make a sigil out of them. With that sigil, all youāve gotta do is activate/charge it which doesnāt require visualization, because youāve already put your intent into it. So no, you shouldnāt be hampered