I want to become me and in all that I do I never fail but always succeed
i asked -or tried to ask, if you are interested into gaining the title,
for making people treat you like a royal -back in the old days?
But like horse girl said: just become a hypnotic television star
~make them crave your voice and view
A beautiful godess
Well. Iād like to either be a hard stone cold bitch who doesnāt break for nothing or no one. Orā¦ a Zen master whoās so in touch with myself that I wonāt even care what happens to me because nothing can take away my inner peace.
I could use a title but I donāt, whatās the point? Iām the last of that branch and quite frankly I think most people think Iām dead or would rather think that way.
Itās a lot more subtle than a title, or an accolade. Itās your DNA.
I canāt say more than that. Go buy yourself a square foot of an anonymous field in Scotland and call yourself a Laird along with the several thousand others who think theyāre now aristocracy. If it genuinely makes you happy it makes you happy.
I donāt have any ancestral lands any more, thereās municipal housing there now and no restitution - I donāt get anything from the state and I donāt ask for anything. Iāve got my DNA and I know who I am and who I become.
A learned and refined esotericist with the job of screenwriter, and perhaps novel writer. Probably as hobby, game programmer, in all these cases working on different genres with a preference for comedy.
I better be careful to not have too many hobbies: cooking and, besides occult activities, ideas about digging fossils (or anyway working as paleontologist instead), trekking, after many years get involved in politicsā¦
I just want to create and enjoy doing it. Be it blacksmithing or sculpting to fine artwork.
I just want to create!
I resonate to this way as well. Plus I want to have the funds available to travel when I/we wish. I donāt have to be off grid necessary but to have that as an option.
Canāt believe no oneās said this yetā¦
But seriously, I want to become a living god.
I want to free myself from the shackles of morality, guilt, and fear. I want to break the chains that society, family, and even our own minds put on us. I want to launch like a rocket into the gulfs of interstellar space and dance with the stars, and I want to plunge into the darkest abysses to shine light onto that which shouldnāt be. I aspire to be liberated from all limitation and transcend all imposed confinements in order to find true freedom. I aspire to hold the streaming colors of creation itself in my right hand, and the inky blackness of destruction incarnate in my left.
I will become a living God.
[The Magicianās] ultimate enemy is the great Magician, the Magician who created the whole illusion of the Universe; and to meet him in battle, so that nothing is left either of him or of yourself, you must be exactly equal to him.
āAleister Crowley
That and, well, I hear chicks dig gods. Itās all about the chicks, man.
Happy, satisfied, divine, with dry balls and a fat wallet!
The guy in peoples history books for the centuries to come
A God
I wanna become moreā¦ me. That would be nice. Can you imagine being so you that nothing else really matters? Absolutely nothing would phase me because Iāve got me.
I wouldnt have to worry about who Iāve got on my side or where I stand in the hearts of those that I love. Maybe then I could love like I want to loveā¦ boundlessly and unrelentlessly. I think I used to love like that when I was youngerā¦ I loved even when I was treated like dirt. It never bothered me I still did anything in the world for them.
But I guess at some point I stopped seeing things from my own eyesā¦ and began looking through others. And I guess in that process, somehow my worth became determined by everything else but me.
If I was more me I could love everyone, I could love anyoneā¦ and I wouldnāt be so afraid of whether or not theyād do me dirty because it wouldnāt even matter. Because no matter what happensā¦ Iāve got me.
I want to be meā¦
I want to be a catalyst for change. I want to inflict chaos into the norm and flip it upside down. I want to see religious institutions emptied out because I embody truth to the point that people canāt help but take notice. Thatās what Iād like for BALG as a whole, for this thing to catch on like wildfire and cause people to think for themselves.
And I want to be my god self at its fullest potential. All that shines turns to rust, and all that stands in time turns to dust. But a living godā¦ that lives forever.
I am. Already that is becoming of me. What becomes else isnāt me. I am not the Web of Wyrd, nor God, let alone the corporeally generated field of my consciousness. I am a part apart. I do not become. I am. And always, I will be.
That sums up my feelings so well. Beautifully put. I just want to be me.
You and me bothā¦
Aside from being most myself, a Magis, with mundane hobbies and career choices, I too want to be a God, a creator of worlds.
Singular, isolated divinity!
Al.
To quote Trent Reznor:
āI want to know everything, I want to be everywhere, I want to fuck everyone in the worldā¦ā
ā¦well, maybe not EVERYONE, I have standards, no really, I DO.