There’s still a small part of me that is codependent on others, and that stems from emotional and psychological abuse and neglect that I experienced during my childhood.
It’s really holding me back and I’m interested to know which deities or methods/approaches/etc can really help me with resolving it.
How would you go about resolving something like this, especially if it was causing unhealthy/damaging spirit attachments (the Dead, mostly)? I’m aware meditation will help, but which techniques or methods would you use to help resolve things?
I’m thinking maybe working with Belial, Lucifer, and Santa Muerte (breaking bondages - Belial, healing/correcting the ego, building self-confidence - Lucifer, healing the self-esteem, psychopomp work for moving on from the old, unhappy memories, maybe some reprogramming my subconscious mind, exorcism - Santa Muerte) will work out for me, along with my own efforts. Particularly since I already work with these deities now, and I have enough on my plate without adding more spirits onto my plate.
I’m not sure what else to consider in my situation. The Dead are tricky, I had no idea what was going on until recently when Santa Muerte showed me very clearly what was going on. There’s a deceased soulless shell that a small part of me is not wanting to leave behind. He and the others with him are causing me to doubt myself, to forget who I am at times, and they’re causing issues that is interfering with the beginning of my Ascent. They’re deceptive and manipulative, they appear like people I know and trust, and things like that. What I saw was the damaged part of me that I’m trying to heal clinging onto this particular Dead guy - like there’s a small part of me that is inappropriately loyal to it. Extremely unhealthy and very alarming.
I went through Hell on Earth just to accept damnation, and I’m not prepared to let some Dead, soulless shells hold me back in my Ascent. They’re only after my energy, whilst appearing to be “friends”.
So I’m looking for solutions, and I have part of it, I’m just not clear on what else I need to consider.