Well, to begin with I was a Christian. I was no more than about 16 at the time when I started seeing one of the youtubers I was watching actively discussing her religion. Her name is Chaos55t and that’s when I first heard of Wicca and learnt some more about it. It still wasn’t for me at the time you know “witchcraft is a sin” and shit. Still was interesting to know what she was talking about, she’s an herbal witch and that’s her path pretty much.
Now by July 2018, I was now 17 years old, I had an intense heavy presence around me where-ever I would go, in the shower it was behind me, when I was walking around, it was behind me and I never understood what it was. You know the Christian mindset, “if its not x, it’s a demon and is therefore evil”.
So, one of Chaos’ friends, a demonologist I consulted with asking a question of “is there anyone who knows about protection from demons?” and I learnt bit by bit what was happening. Hell, she even took me on a spirit walk but my astral senses were not awoken yet. I could feel what I thought was there, it was a way of finding my spirit guide.
I talked to her about the only demons I knew which were “Baal, Asmodeus, Lucifer and Abraxas” and so on and so forth and as we talked exorcisms she showed me something that blew my Christian mind. She sent me a video of an exorcism that involved calling upon Satan/Lucifer himself to rid the demon from your presence. She also told me of the goetia themselves
I slowly grew away from what I wanted to be at the time, Catholic and became more and more aligned to what I am now. By September, I met my “spirit guide” who was a white fox and successfully did an astral projection to my friend in North Cyprus. She told me afterward, she could hear someone say her nickname and that no one in her family knew what her nickname was.
It was then I began dwelling further into this occult and all of this secret knowledge. I was so drawn into the spiritual that I built my first Altar-Christian themed altar keep in mind and some spirits took my matches out of my pocket after it was built. Then, suddenly they re-appeared under my IPad.
I kept further going down my path, I was an agnostic but then I turned completely into a Norse Pagan when Freyja put protective runes all over me. I studied runic magick, studied the Viking path, worked with Freyja for seidr and then eventually made my way to the Kemetic gods and studied with Thoth who I was completely drawn to. His teaching style is simply this “Do or do not, I’m not going to manifest the result for you, I can only tell you what you must do. The rest is up to you” and those Egyptian/Kemetic gods, they are fucking giant.
Thoth in of himself was about the size of a two story house and spoke to me in a deep voice. He told me quite a fair bit about the ascent I didn’t understand at the time.
Which leads me to now, “Al-ash Tad-alash Ash-tu” awoken within me a respect for the goetia and I no longer feared them but worked with them toward my ascent. I work with whatever spirit that can help me and I give to them that which is needed