When started reading forum first impression was that everything in this forum was bullshit but kept a open mind and started reading the forum. I was gather info it wasn’t until I stumbled Lucifer and other demons that my mind broke
It felt my head exploded with all these questions about what I believed in. after my mind calm a bit I felt like something was call out to me. I don’t really act on these feeling because I felt weak and vulnerable my energy felt very low so I wasn’t going bite. I went to work the same day then I started get slight headaches felt physical fatigue sometimes energy would erupt to the point where hard to think then just crash making feel weak.
When I got home I went straight too bed, 2 hour in my body overheating and there a strong presence in my room don’t try to talk to it just want to go to bed it stay most of the night resulting in a shit morning.
The calling didn’t stop and could sense more thing watching waiting for to make decision. This lasted 3-4 days I think on two occasions somebody tried pull me out body but I have irrational fear of this due to a evil spirit tormenting me, so acted like a fish out water making so that couldn’t leave me body.it was on the last day of the ordeal that I read a post about Jesus and angels that made smile and with this all fear about had spirit had disappeared so did the calling and the spirits that I felt. after all of this my curiosity was peaked and ready to set out on spiritual journey. I’m still kind noob when comes to magick but I’m learning but its slow sorry for long post but had to get this off my chest.