When I Knew

October is Baby Angel Awareness Month.:blue_heart:

RIP: Carlee Renee

I sleep now. There are moments when magick cannot heal everything.

Ackward boys flirting with the ladies!

Sometimes I laugh. Otherwise, my brain goes into a place where the dark hides from the light.

If I told you exactly what I felt, you’d be caught up in the middle of a storm. That’s what the Abyass does ya know, it kills you into the waters until you can no longer see the shore line.

This is not where a Christian girl should find herself. Yet, here she is! Alone and facing down her enemies with a super charge of hatered. I don’t care to love my enemies. I care to love my equals.

You cannot take what is not yours!

You want truth and honesty.

The North wind protects the South wind, as long as you protect me. I am the North wind.

I’m the wind through your trees you can’t forget about.

Mama calls me hers.

You know nothing between the relationship of a Mother and Daughter.

Tiamat is the dark mirror into the light of an Egyptian Queen you know nothing about.

The Scarab will hang around my neck the end of all of this.

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I post my last insight on myself for a bit.

The tide is coming.

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The whales are the Mother of the Oceans.

Mark my words, I hate. They will not block the rage inside of me nor will they not block every vile thing coming from my heart.

Those who dare cross the ocean from the South to the North will be left in a stunned state. Every pollution of humanity reeks of the dead that are rising. Their energy flows pasts you and you hear their screams. There are stratches on the wall.

The most vile creature will save it’s best for last, the largest whale will simply throw IT at you. The face staring back at you, whispering of the hate you’ve caused.

There will be no sleep nor warmth for two days. Food will taste like ash. The grave has been dug.

Mark my words, I hate.

I’ll dance on your corpse in the moonlight. That’s a promise. For Lilith doesn’t forgive. And Tiamat is already aware of the abominations of those who pollute the current of the river.

The Dark Goddess will rise like an unknown force as the waters come seeping through.

And then it will rain and you’ll be washed away in the current, as she doesn’t forgive so easily the ambassador of a flock with bad apples.

The sands dance in the dust, this is my hell. For a person who steals the dreams, the words, and the horse - is a coward.

Leave and don’t come back.

Snip, snip! You’re no longer being mirrored with him.

For those waters rushing through like the tidal wave, are my forgiveness.

You’re not him and you don’t need me.


She sleeps after November 1st.

Go left and don’t come back until the chains are broken.

His words to me:
“No one needs you. You’re better off dead.”

Then I die on 11/1/2020.

More words from him:
The dark haired one is your past. Not your future. And for everything you’ve done, I will make sure you are dead.

I don’t know if these words are coming from Aset, Ahriman, or someone else:

Maybe I see something you don’t. Maybe I see someone stronger than you’ve ever realized. No one wants you dead. But…

But nothing. It’s best to be alone in the silence, to allow the dark to come. Get all that hatered out.

For you are love and you’ve forgotten this.

Update: I’ll be dancing on the corpse of my ex.

Aset Speaking

You are wanted. :slightly_smiling_face:

Woken up at 1:35. Posting one last time before I make zero scene to the common good.


Editing to add update: But I don’t wanna be an “Ommmmm” type of witchy. :partying_face:

But it’s gonna be fun!

Now I can sleep again.

Some of the reverse spell I did this past summer worked. This came up today on my feed!

Funny how aeons ago that I once wanted my physical child to look like the man I wanted to marry and now when I look at pictures of him, I am physically repulsed by him.

Now on the other hand, there is another “He”.

He is still speaking to me; yet, I don’t know who “He” is. This “He” isn’t angry that I am ignoring him and his patience with the randomness in my head is currently keeping him on his toes.

I’ve simply allowed “Him” the choice to be completely understandable or else leave me be to walk my path. Either a man rings the doorbell and comes to me, or else he doesn’t understand who I am.

So, I simply work on my will power.

I simply work on my goals. I simply leave the past behind.

I simply put down the sword and stop fighting.

I walk the road to sexual healing.

Those who rape and sexually abuse are heathens. The lowest of the low.

The chains of denial have come off. Details do not matter.

I simply adore this amazing friend of mine. :slightly_smiling_face: The Apache Budda.

And people think I don’t know others. :joy:

Hahahaha! I know my tribe. Plain and simple.


The wind is blowing tonight. It’s silent.

A bridge is burning towards the Northern lights. The week don’t see it. The strong do.

She’s my Dragon.

Know your guardian.

This Law of Attraction is certainly an interesting thing.

Current situation: Still single

More at ease with myself and getting things ready for the next level.

Song: I Belong To Me, by Jessica Simpson

I belong to me…

It’s not that I don’t wanna share my life with you baby
It’s just that I’m the one I need to be true to baby
And I won’t give up me to be part of you
It’s not that I don’t wanna have you in my life baby
It’s just you gotta know that it’s got to be right baby
Before I open up my heart to you

I don’t need somebody to complete me
I complete myself
Nobody’s got to belong to somebody else

I belong to me
I don’t belong to you
My heart is my possession
I’ll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I’m one not half of two
And if you’re gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me

I gotta let you know before I let you in, baby
That who I am is not about who I am with, baby
That don’t mean I don’t wanna be here with you
I do

I don’t need somebody to complete me
I want you to know
I’ll give up my love but I’m not giving up my soul

I belong to me
I don’t belong to you
My heart is my possession
I’ll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I’m one not half of two
And if you’re gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me

Oh yea

Love don’t mean changing who you are to be
Who somebody wants you to be
Nobody’s got to belong to nobody

I belong to me
I don’t belong to you
My heart is my possession
I’ll be my own reflection

I belong to me
I don’t belong to you
My heart is my possession
I’ll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I’m one not half of two
And if you gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me

I feel like I get more vain by the day. However, the more I care about the inside, the more I care about reflecting that on the outside.

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Ahriman: Ya gotta learn from the women you admire.


anyone dare call this Queen fat, you’ll get the evil eye from my inner monster

Apparently, I’m going old school today.

*ready to go

we go South today!

South, I wanna go North.

No, South!

There is nothing for me that way.

Ancestors: Get in the car and we’re going South.

Okay, okay, got it.