Oooof… uh… are you sure (about the “forgiving” part)? If someone asks you for a favor and then spits on you, throws stuff at your home front, and insults you because you didn’t get the result for them quick enough, would you just forgive them like nothing happened when they ask you for a favor again? Would you even listen to what they need or want?
Your problem is your lack of faith. You know what is the actual fuel for manifestations? Whether it’s the law of attraction, chaos magick, wicca, religions…
FAITH. It’s always about keeping a blind faith despite the odds and despite everything seeming to not go in your favor. It’s your faith/belief that manifests things.
It’s not like we can “switch spirits” and some will work and others won’t. It’s not about the spirits, it’s about our faith in them. If we don’t believe, they won’t do anything for us. Why would they?
Actually, it all makes sense. You just gotta read between the lines and separate what’s true from what’s been told by men/humans/powerful people throughout history.
It’s all true, but everyone tells the story differently. In the same way, the old gods of ancient pantheons are all the same people (the same family, actually). They’ve just been given different names and details to their stories throughout the ages, but if you study ancient mythologies you’ll soon realize it’s the exact same story being told over and over again (in ancient Egypt, in South/Central America, in the Nordic countries, in Asian countries, etc). It’s always the same people. All those people from different points of the world witnessed the same, and wrote it down in their own ways and styles.
Personally, I think Jesus was the greatest metaphysical master that ever lived among us. Of course, he got killed. How could he not? He was out of time and space, and humanity was not ready for him (still isn’t). At the same time, there’s the mystery of the Holy Trinity: Jesus, the Holy Spirit, and God. They’re one, but they’re not the same.
So what happened when Jesus, an aspect of God, was killed? What about that “last temptation” to try to get him to desist from his purpose? Personally, from what I’ve meditated and the messages I got, the ones “tempting” him weren’t actually doing it because they hate humanity and didn’t want us to resurrect after we die… but because it was unnecessary. Why do such a terrible sacrifice, when God could have just snapped his fingers and say “boom! resurrection for everybody! have a good day!”? It was not necessary for Jesus to die, much less for him to do so in such a gruesome, painful way. The so-called “demons” thought it was unfair, unnecessary, and curiously also motivated from ego and pride of God, because he knew Jesus would become a praised figure for ages. Reminder: Jesus was one with God. He was his son aspect… but he was also the father himself. He could have decreed resurrection for anybody any time, but this is the way he wanted it done. He wanted his human/son aspect to be nailed to a cross, tortured, and killed. He wanted humanity to witness it, record it, and remember it.
But how could it be that I also work with demons and other spirits? Because we’re all pieces on the board. Demons come from The Eternal One as well, they have their own purposes, whether they like it or not (as we do!). If He wanted them destroyed, he’d just do it. But they have their roles to play, and they’re aspects of Him as well. God is not all “love and light” as religions would have you believe. He’s also “wrath and darkness,” he’s all that is. We can ignore the shadows and darkness as much as we want, but it will still be there.
And then we got Jude. Was he evil for turning Jesus in? He was doing his part. He was playing his role and doing what he had to do. It was him, but it could have been anyone else. Someone had to. There would be no Jesus to remember without Jude.
The more you look back and study ancient mythologies, pantheons, and religions… the more you realize it all makes a lot of sense. It adds up. You just gotta take away all the human interests that so many have added to ancient texts as time passed by to benefit from political power, turning beliefs into organized religions that intend to tell people what to do and how to live, believing themselves to be Him.
Just my 2 cents 
