Basically, my life is slowly falling apart, I’m iffy about saying it, cuz that’ll make it worse. But no other way to explain my situation and dismiss it. Anyways, life started out stagnant, I was lost and just didn’t know where the fuck to go or what the fuck to do. (spiritually and everything else).
Feeling lost always happens for me, after a good couple months, BOOM and I’m lost. And honestly kinda tired of it. But now, I feel like my life is starting to go all over the place, I don’t know what to do, school is stressing me the fuck out. I just feel like life is just not where the fuck I want it to be. I’m young, and I honestly hate this fucking world, most of yall can relate tbh, we’re all in here for a reason, I just feel like this worlds full of shit, people are full of shit. I really just wanna hold on to absolute power for just a couple hours, change my world completely and give it back.
Anyways back to it, my father died from cancer a couple months back from cancer, some of u here know. After that, I failed my exams, my IGCSE’s, got absolute shit grades. And right now, I fucking lost in what I should do for my future, WHEN I LITERALLY HAD IT ALL FIGURED OUT. What the fuck am I supposed to do, I swear I was fine a couple weeks back, now I realised I was just escaping this bullshit. I wanted to make a thread for this for so long, but I just thought it’d make me look weak, and it’ll make the situation worst, cuz wadda ya know what u think and say manifests.
What am I looking to do here guys? Any of u been here before and got out like a pro, making millions now with unimaginable power. I’ve done magick, and honestly I cant manifest shit, I’ve done evocations where I heard the spirits CLEARLY, empowerment rites. Everything spiritual is fine and they do manifest. But when it comes to manifesting in the physical, that doesnt ever happen, maybe only once or twice. Is a mentor what I should be looking for?
Sorry for the long ass bullshit, just needed to vent a little.